Things That I Am Learning

Over the past few weeks, as you know. I have been doing Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide, to be specific I have been doing this for six weeks now. I am in week 7. It has been completely consuming in terms of having to eat clean and make sure that I get all the workouts in - which at the moment is five cardio sessions a week and three resistance. On days like today, I am doing exercise twice a day - once before work and now once after - resistance in the evening. I have also had monumental fuck ups as far as food - like massive severe binges, which have left me feeling fat and hopeless. It's different though. I'm a bulimic female, binge starve, binge starve and these binges are mental. This time though I have binged, carried on exercising and then gotten back on track and by some small miracle, my progress pics are still showing some difference. I mean, I am by no means bikini ready, but it isn't like I don't think I'll be there by Thailand in a few weeks. 

I also have been eating way more than I ever have consistently and I feel really fucking good. I mean - it's about 1200 - 1500 per day plus about 300 - 600 cals worth of exercise, so in a MIA world, it's still right up there. It's almost like I'm learning that I can eat things and still lose weight. I know that sounds ridiculous... I actually don't think it sounds ridiculous at all. You girls know what I mean - It's like ja duh captain obvious, but maybe I can EAT!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT, I CAN EAT? *can I eat? food is still the enemy... don't be silly piggy...*

I did cardio before work this morning and I went to gym this evening *fist bump* 

Maybe I can be normal? ... said the walking calorie counter. 

Peace & Love 

Xo Xo

3 Times A Week

Something which has really been bugging me for the last age or so, well not really that long in the grander scheme of things. Whatever - so my ex and I - Roy, the douchebag who I will love hopelessly until I die, because I am that sadly drawn to the belief that him and I were made for each other, hopeless teenage love kinda vibe - yeah, for the long time followers, you remember him, for the newer ones, go back to 2012. Yeah... that was a fun year. In fact, it was 2011 - ANYWAY, so Roy and I had sex ALL THE TIME. I loved having sex with him, not because I got an immense amount of personal satisfaction from it, because I'm not one of those girls... er... what I am trying to say is that it is VERY, VERY hard for me to come. Anyway, but I loved it anyway, because I got satisfaction out of the intimacy of it and that he loved it so much - hopeless love anyone? I remember once his brother making a comment that anyone who had sex more than 3 times a week was unhealthy. Roy and I looked at each other and burst out laughing. Because at that stage we were like twice a day, forget three times a week. 

(... you know how all the cosmo-type advice says that 3 times a week is healthy?)

Fast forward three years and I couldn't be less interested in sex. David and I rarely do it, because I'm just not interested and when we do, it is a chore. I'm just not interested. I don't really get anything out of it and if I'm like ... *frustrated* then I'll you know... have some private time. I mean, sex with him is okay and all, but I could honestly go without it entirely. We only see each other about once a week at the moment, because he has exams and I'm mental with this workout schedule and all (again, if you want to see the progress and keep up with that find me on instagram: keranasaurus) - so we really only do it once a week. It's starting to bug me though that I'm libidoless, or like... maybe my lady parts are just broken that I don't love it or something. I dunno - am I broken?

Do you guys keep up with the 3 times a week (horny teenagers DO NOT COUNT)? 

Love & Strength

Xo Xo

San Diego - German For Whales Vagina

I'm baccccccck... from San Diego. What an amazing trip, things have been quite hectic since I've been back, so sorry about not posting, but I'm back now although only for two weeks before I'm off to Boston... then Amsterdam, then Thailand. So I won't go into all the details about San Diego, but essentially the salient points are that I totally managed to stick to my workout routine with the exception of Friday, but I finished week 5 of Kayla Itsines without a problem and basically, it's. all. good. I've done one cardio session (total 4/5 a week) and one resistance (3 a week), so things are going well. My progress picture also is looking good, things are slimming out. I did however eat a ton of shit in San Diego, not to mention all of the alcohol, but this is what happens when you travel for work. ANYWAY, less than six weeks till Thailand, I WILL HAVE A BIKINI BODY. After my 12 weeks of Kayla, I'll also post my progress pictures here no matter how bad they look. Tomorrow I've got another resistance and cardio session. I've got this. 

In other news, I've got an interview next week with a solar non-profit, they are a trade association in England and I will be joining them in the capacity as a business development person managing their membership and external stakeholders. There will be some local and European travel - nothing quite as cool as what I've got at the moment, but it would be the right decision for my career. ANYWAY, I'm quite excited about the prospect of the organisation, so let's see how it goes. I think this might let me down on salary. 

So hey ho, what's new? Is anyone else still doing Kayla? I wanna hear the news? I will write a proper post on this tomorrow or probably Thursday, because I have some revelations to share... but for now, I'm still jetlagged and my brain is foggy...

Strength & Love

Xo Xo