Today was the boys birthday... 28 he is. Thanks for all the lovely comments on my last post.... Alice May <3 Anyway, enough about that... Every relationship has it's issues and I can forgive him for Amanda, like he has to forgive me for trying to kill myself and *cough cough* with his friend.
Today was good. I GOT PAID, but I still don't have a bank card, so I have to go into the bank tomorrow and get cash, but at least I have it :). I have a bunch of work to do by Monday. FUck fuck. So I have to get on that tomorrow, I am trying to sort out my sleeping patterns because I have been going to sleep at 5am and waking up at 3pm. NOT good. So now I have to sort this shizit out. I also need to start looking for a place of my own to rent... gawd. This is going to be epicly fun.
Today I ate about 450 cals. About 250 was a crapload of butternut soup. Then I had a really shitty mojito with a friend of mine. I'm guessing it was about 200, but they didn't put sugar in it like they shouldve so I'm guessing it was probably less. I have dinner of thursday and friday so I need to behave till then. Also I can't have a binge day... or I can make it friday. Something like that. I need to buy a scale. SOON. But I can't till I move out. I don't need this dude to see me being all obsessive.
I just woke up it's 243am. And guess what I was dreaming about? Ben & Jerrys. OH right and WIN for thinspo TV, the biggest loser and top model. Yes. We. Can. I found it really funny that in one ep of top model they had to eat a Pinks hotdog. As if a model would. *laugh* OH and I broke my awesome pair of wedges today. :(:( The one strap snapped while I was strolling around central London. Fail. Fail. Fail.
Ben & Jerrys *cry*
Xo Xo
3 comments:
Top model is so funny. They are always showing them eating a bunch of crap. Either they have really really really fast metabolisms or it is the show's way of saying "we do not support nor indorse eating disorders" even though they kind of do. :P
My sleeping is all screwy too. Sometimes I just end up staying up all night and then sleeping all day. Probably unhealthy and really annoying. :/
I woke up at 2.40am too today :DD
Top model and Ben & Jerrys... *laugh so that my coffee is all over the table* you just made my morning girl ^^
OMG, I remember THOSE days, when I was a good girl... I've been kinda "out of the game" for a while, so these days I'm eating like 2000 a day! GROSS. but, today I started my cut down, tomorrow I'll eat less, and hopefully I'll soon get my control back and bee eating under 500 again!!
And I hope u get scales soon - I know it's hell without them. We have some but it's broken, so it tells you five different numbers in a row >:(
Good luck finding a place!!
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