Updates Guys!

Listen dudes, I'm lank sorry I've been absent considering we have the challenge on the go, but please know three things. Firstly, I have just been fuck busy with work, literally dying. But in about four hours I'll complete a final order so tomorrow will be dedicated to challenge admin and updating. Secondly, I have failing at the challenge so fucking miserably. And thirdly, I will make sure it's all sorted out soon. In the meantime comment with you stats for this week. The week 1 stats will be published on Friday. :) So ya'll have till then to post em to me. I'll also give until Sunday to send through the stats for week 1, then I'll remove from the challenge page, cuz like. A LOT of people are in this challenge which is epic, but I don't forsee everyone sticking to it. Like me. I'm fucking failing. But tomorrow is going to be a fruit fast of 2 days. Followed by a juice fast of 2 days. Hoping to be back at my UGW by then :) . Ladies we got this, despite my crappy admin.

So, the polish guy was here for the weekend. And he is damn nearly perfect... except the sex. Which. Is. AWFUL! Well. Not awful, I guess he just doesn't know what the fuck he is doing, or he was fucking nervous. Anyway. He wants to come back next weekend, but I kinda feel like that's moving all a little bit too fast for me. Which is kinda freaking me out, so I may ask him to NOT come back this weekend and do it next weekend rather. TOO quick. The brit boy, Michael is coming over tomorrow night, but... I feel like I've lost enthusiasm there since he said two things: a) that I was the best *cough* he ever had. Which must be untrue since I was drunk off my ass. Which means he's only coming here to get in my pants, which is simply not on. I realise of course that this is a total double standard, since I am the one that puts myself out there like this and then gets offended when it's expected, but everyone knows that dirty one night stands are one thing, but the follow up is ladylike. Well that's the way I see it anyway. So I may disinvite him as well. I actually think... my life being full of men... Is not what I want. I feel like I need someone amazing, and while both these boys are nice, they are not extraordinary. I'd rather hold out. Oh... and I changed Meatball's name to Gremlin. It makes more sense since he is a loving, very cute, but vicious little bitch.

I am so fat at the moment. I need to make a plan. I don't even feel slim anymore. I feel like I'm moving back into the realm of average sized. HOW AWFUL, average sized. Did anyone catch the Olympic ladies highjump. Those chicks were such great thinspo, omg. Like tall, lean and skinny as fuck. I need to make a change or I am going to end up the same old sad piggy that lost everything. I need Coco. Coco hasn't been that strong. But this evening Coco gave me a harsh realities of life check. Fuck this shit man. Next thing you know I'm going to be a size 6.

Fat & Miserable
Xo Xo