Blogging from my phone because I couldn't be arsed to actually pick up my computer right now. Right guys, yes I'm going to talk about Roy again. I found out today why he has refused to tell me what his exs name is. It's because it's our old neighbour, Shelly. The one who I constantly asked if he was seeing her and he constantly denied it. Just when I think he can't be any more predictable or disappointing. There you have it. Now please HEAR ME! I'm not upset about it. It really just confirms everything I know about him. Which is that he will never change - the fact that he hasn't manned up and told me. It's just weak. He is a weak person. Yet again, I have been burnt by people by having too great an expectation of them. That being said. I will never stop expecting the best from people. One day, I will meet someone or some people who live up to those expectations. The lesson here is to trust my instincts. Stop being weak myself and to stop thinking that people can change. It's just so very disappointing. On the plus side - what I do know is that she is dumb as rocks, short and has a fat ass. So actually I don't feel insecure about it, I'm just really disappointed that he didn't have the stones to own up. I shan't be seeing him when I'm in Cape Town. Unfortunately. He's not worth my time.
In other news, I had an interview yesterday which went hopelessly badly. Like just so terribly. Whoops *blush*! I ate about 1500 cals yesterday too which wasn't great. So this morning I gained from the day before to 64.3. Which is a bummer. Today I've had 600 cals... Well 570 actually. I had oatmeal for breakfast (170) and noodles for dinner (400). Perfect day. I feel light and empty.
Air & Solitude
Xo Xo
3 comments:
That sucks. I can't believe he didn't have the guts to tell you.
I'm sorry that your interview didn't go so well. Your intake today sounds wonderful. I'm sorry that your weight isn't going the way you want it. But you'll get there soon enough.
XOXO
Hi, I like your blog. I live in the U.S. but I assume you're recording your weight in kilograms? If so, I am just a few pounds behind you: 66.0. I look forward to reading more; I started following you a little over a year ago but have only just returned from a long hiatus.
" It's because it's our old neighbour, Shelly" awkwaaaaaaaaaaaaaard.
"He is a weak person" and a motherfucking asshole to boot.
"One day, I will meet someone or some people who live up to those expectations." i don't have expectations of people. that is exactly why nobody ever disappoints me.
"The lesson here is to trust my instincts. Stop being weak myself and to stop thinking that people can change." people can change. but...90% of them won't. 10% will. it's that 10% that i am a part of. i changed. and i'm happy for it. in fact, i'm constantly changing.
fortunately not unfortunately.
1500 calories. darling, i ate 3000 calories yesterday. and i maintained my weight. that...is not genetics. what the fuck is up with my body i'll never know (it's been happening for 5 days apparently).
how can you eat so little i just don't get it anymore
i can't stick to 1500 calories because my stomach is killing itself after my 600 calorie BREAKFAST.
-Sam Lupin
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