Things are just going to absolute shit at the moment in my life. God forbid the 'happiness' last long at all, time for the next sodding hurdle and fuck me. I wish it would all just go away for a while. Work is a total shitshow at the moment. With a new MD, the company is slowly realising the trouble that it is in and for better or worse, I'm completely willing to weather the storm. EXCEPT. Now they've told us that someone from my team of 7 is going to be out of a job by the end of the year. So my options are to wait around and hope that I don't get sacked or to find another job. I've chosen to do the latter. I mean in essence, I will have to wait around for the BIG REVEAL, but ultimately I've made the decision to the GTFO. It's so stressful and I'm an anxious wreck for most of the time. I can't do my job properly, because I'm completely distracted. It is awful. The upside is that the jobs I'm looking at are significantly better paid than my current role and more senior. Every cloud...
The other side of it is that I smoked all weekend, which means I ate all weekend and am enormous. Today I had a couple too many cals but on the whole I'm at around 1200. I can deal. Too terrified to step on the scale. Awful. Awful. Awful.
Awful & More Awful
Xo Xo
2 comments:
Things always seem to happen when everything is just chugging along well. Keeps life "interesting", I suppose.
Perhaps this is a good thing, though. A new job that pays better and might be less stressful on you... Could be wonderful in so many ways!
Life has it's ups and downs! HOpefully you keep your job and are happy with that or find a better, new amazing one. Hopefully you'll just find happiness in whatever route your life chooses to take!
& great job with the cals today! : )
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