Monday Bloody Monday

Thanks for all the awesome comments on my last post. The weird thing that I always get on reflection from my previous posts really has to do with the fact that sometimes I don't really consider how common our problems are to one another. It seems that EDs and cutting... self harm seem to go hand in hand. And another comment that I got a lot was that pain is one thing as long as we can control where it comes from. Which is kinda funny if you think about it. Like its okay to hurt yourself but god forbid anyone else do it.

Today has been a better day. I think I will be on about 800 for the day. Which isn't great. But I have promised myself that I shall not be buying ANY food, not milk, not tea or coffee nada until next week Monday. All i have is a bit of milk, some pasta and some fruit. So if it runs out. Then bubkis. I shan't be eating anymore than that.

I have also started applying for jobs. Like proper day jobs, but also within the writing field. I have kinda realised that my shit is made a lot worse by the fact that I can sleep all day and not socialise with anyone and just be a hermit with my own problems. I will see what my shrink says about it tomorrow. Yoh. It is scary though. It looks like my flat has fallen through. So the hunt will continue tomorrow. Fuck balls sake. Oh well. *le sigh*

Peace & Love
Xo Xo