I'm on my fucking mission again to get back down and today I managed to fruit fast pretty much. I've had three nectarines (39 each = 117cals), a landslide of tea (100ish), a low-cal monster (45) and coffee this morning with honey (40). So not too bad for today I suppose. I won't even tell you what I weighed this morning, because it was disgusting even with a day of fasting. I must say. I felt really really tired this morning at work. Like my brain just wasn't functioning. I may eat tomorrow... I'm thinking something low... About 500 maybe. Anyway, let's see. Thanks to everyone for being supportive, but I know what I'm doing. As much as it pains me to say this and I don't mean it in any kind of bad or condescending way. BUT. Recovery is not a route for me. I don't ever want to recover and I don't think I need to. Best of luck to those that are, you are stronger than I am. But recovery isn't for me. I am this way and I'm fine with it. 55 here I come... Again!
Peace & Love
Xo Xo
3 comments:
When it comes down to it you gotta do what you gotta do to exist in your body as sad as that sounds. Just watch your health. That's all I can say, but I can't say that I blame you for going that route. I'd starve too except even that doesn't work for me anymore.
i was waiting for the food then i realised it didn't exist
bby :( hold on ok <3
TELL ME YOUR WEIGHT AND THEN GIVE IT TO ME
500ish is good ok
:( awwwwww don't worry. i'm not going to push you into recovery. <3
'again!' i died laughing.
i'm sort of fucking up recovery with Ramadan (i'm like eating like a mouse) - today, 2 slices of pizza gave me a searing stomach ache for 2.5 hours! i kid you not! it was horrible!
-Sam Lupin
Good luck sweetie xx
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