Boom Mutha Fucken BAM Bitches!

Right, so today actually went well. Full of fucking determination and vigour mutha fuckers. Anyway, just to recap on yesterday, I read something on sparkpeople.com. I love looking at that website, it is great for tracking calories and exercise etc. I figured out that the reason I have been failing so badly recently, is because I have actually stopped tracking calories and measurements and shit. Which, obviously is a recipe for disaster, because I have become complacent. So yes, time to shinnnnnne. <3 Anyway, so I read an article that it takes 21 - 40 days for something to become a habit, so this is what I am going to do.

Oh would also just like to add that today is the first day of lent, so being day 1 of my new resolve is good and there are loads of people sacrificing etc all over the world. Another excuse. :) Feel free to join. Clearly, as my last attempt demonstrates, I am useless at administering a challenge. But fuck it, feel free to diet along. 

I also didn't weigh myself this morning. I am sure it is over 60kg and that is a number I can't look at right now. So I am going to weigh in tomorrow.

1. Calorie intake: I seriously know I cannot stick to the ABC diet. Like I am going to fail at some point. So until Monday it will only be fruit and tea/coffee as I mentioned in my last post. Today I have managed to eat half a mango for breakfast, a handful of grapes, two plums, a hazelnut latte (okay I know this is bad) and two cups of tea with minimal milk. Because I had the hazelnut latte, I am not going to have dinner, which was going to be soup. But I'm not going to anymore. Excellent. So according to my calorie counter, I have had about 420 calories today. I think there may be another cup of tea, just to stop the rumbling. 

2. No cigarettes: I don't expect to make this, but it is expensive firstly and quite gross secondly and also it screws up the cravings because you crave nicotine which comes in the form of wanting to eat everything you lay your hands on. So two days no ciggies, so far... :0

3. 100 sit ups per day: I did them yesterday (two sets of 50), I did them today (one set of 40 and two sets of 30) and my abs are hurting. But this is good right?

4. A 15 minute run: It was raining mutha fucken balls today, so instead I watched a whole bunch of workout videos. I was going to do the pussycat doll workout (maybe do it tomorrow instead - I'm kinda stoked to try it if I'm honest), but then settled on Ballet Boot Camp - which was fuck difficult and then a little bit of yoga. I want to get my flexibility back.

5. No alcohol: Quite honestly, although it would be nice - who the fuck am I kidding.

6. Not contact my ex: I started writing an email to him and then stopped and thought: 21 days. I need to get over 21 days of not contacting you. So I stopped. I miss him. So much. :( I really really just do. Everything this week has reminded me of him and fuck it, just so much missing. *cries*

So yes, for today at least it appears as if I have powered through day 1. I am going to try get to bed at a reasonable time tonight, although thinking about it - I actually did some form of exercise today, so maybe I will actually be able to fall asleep. I feel pretty fucken knackered right now. Anyway, will see. :)

OH and I have also decided that instead of getting scripture tattooed on my thigh like I wanted, I have decided that I would rather have that running down the inside of my arm (vertically) like Katy Perry. Whatever, I don't worship her, it's just a kief place for a tat. And instead, I am going to have a cat with a hawaiin plumeria flower (which I have decided is my favourite) somehow tattooed on my thigh. Yes we can.

I miss him SO much.

Love & Abs
Xo Xo