What the FUCK!?

I have been SO good for over a week now and I only binged on Saturday (okay - it was a big binge) but Sunday was 650ish and yesterday was only 250. And I have lost maybe... 2lbs? WHAT THE FUCK! On the plus side it is just motivating me more! He forced me to have lunch with him so I had this awesome veggie surprise thing that I get at one of my local stores. It's actually for children and it's a ready to eat kiddies meal. This one had butternut and sweet potato mash with peas and corn. I just add some habenero sauce and black pepper in it and I'm a for AWAY! Yesterday to eat I had one of those, a small bowl of soup and an apple. The best thing about this veggie pot is that it only has about 110 cals in it. Which is great. So I'm going to have another one for dinner. But the ones he just bought me are slightly different both have cheese sauce in it and then the one has mash potato (I can't even remember what a potato tastes like) and pasta (ditto), but they are still under 200 cals per meal. So that's fine. If I just have one for dinner. It will be okay. I reckon I should stay about 500 today and then super low again tomorrow. Same principle as the ABC or SGD.

After I had lunch today though I felt SO sick. Like light headed and nauseous so he pipes up "well it's your body going into shock because it hasn't had food in ages." I think I need to remind him of our deal to lay the fuck off. I will be 132 by next friday SO help me god. Moreoverwhich, the weather is great so bikinis out this weekend. Extra motivation.

I may have a lead on a job, it is in a restaurant as a waiter, but at least it's flexible hours/shifts and the money is better than normal casual jobs and cash in hand. Which is good.

Thanks for all the comments and welcome to my new followers. Hi to Clear Girl - stoked to have you. Tall bitches for life :p. Thanks to Beth - babe you know how much I appreciate you. :) And I'm getting into Wintergirls. Put it on my BB so I can read it while waiting around. Thanks to Sarah - my second name is also Sarah - LOVE it. :) :) And to Will - good luck and please look after yourself. :) :) I find it so interesting to have a boys perspective on things. I LOVE your blog. In fact READ Williams BLOG!

Bikini Thinspo! God. 10lbs in a 9 days. Although, I think if I can get down to about 135 I will be okay. I should have been more strict for the last two three weeks. Oh well.

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Above is Claire Danes - this is pretty much exactly the kind of body I want. Although my legs are longer and my torse shorter. But lean and flat. Love it.

I really don't think Nic Richie is pretty, but she has such a nice little thin body. Not over the top - just nice.

Kate Bosworth - need I say more. B. E. A. Utiful.

Think Thin! <3 <3 <3