No more ED for me - dumb WHORE!

It is official. I hate that shrink fucking ED specialist whore fucking bitch. For fucking fuck sakes. Today I went to see her and she looked around the waiting room, stared at me twice and then walked off. She didn't even fucking recognise me. Not that I blame her mind you, because that stupid fucking bitch wouldn't think I have an ED. Understandable I guess, since I am after all a little piggy. I mean no one can mistake me for having a problem. So therefore, I have decided that I do NOT have an eating disorder. Fuck these people. There is nothing wrong with the way I eat or do not eat. So they can kiss my ass. That fucken bitch is getting nothing from me now. I am going to lie about what I eat and I refuse to let her weigh me. Anyway, so the short of the whole situation is that I just left a message with my normal shrink to call me. And I explained the situation and told her I didn't want to see that WHORE again, but she said she really wants me to. So hence my plan.

Anyway, I am a fat disgusting piggy at the moment. So, again I am starting another fasting week. Today, didn't entirely fast, but I definitely had less than 500 cals. I had coffee with a little milk and some honey (I swear I'm addicted), a small bunch of grapes and a tiny bowl of thai curry. So I think I am okay. Tomorrow, I want to hit the fruit, black coffee and coke zero. So if I can keep it below 500 for the rest of the week, I think I should be doing fine.

Fucking fuck sakes. Anyway, so this lilypad is driving me nuts. And I must just add to Sammy - I'm WAITING FOR YOU BABY!!!!!! <3 Anyway, but this boy is just... *sigh* so perfect. But yet again, like it was two years ago - are we aren't we. And then I don't think he will ever commit, because he doesn't want to disappoint people. So - I think I shall keep my options open. Or just not be a clingy mess as I am prone to being... Anyway, I think I just need to get to London.

Fuck sakes. Feel vaguely depro again.

Love & Blondes
Xo Xo