Today, this week, this life can just go fuck itself. I'm so fucking over life today. Fuck it in the ass. Everything on facebook irritates me today. My fat friend from South Africa has yet again failed a diet but wants to bitch about how fat she is. And I don't have the patience. More than that, she is fucking *splode*. There is this girl, whom we both dislike, but there was a stage at the beginning of the year where we were friends and the whole duration of the friendship, she'd say shitty things about this girl, because yes she's a bitch. And now alllll she wants is to be friends with this girl again, so she isn't on the fucking shortbus. NO, dude. NO. It is not okay to sell yourself out to the people who deem to be cool. We are not in highschool. Furthermore, if you haven't noticed, the shortbus is where we thrive. jesus. So there is that. I have spent the weekend comatosed from bong smoking and snow. So I've been eating like a horse and of course my scale arrived today, so now I have to deal with that. I'm going to wait till tomorrow before I weigh myself. Because I was so high, I'm now behind on my writing, but I am going to catch up today after I've done some work.
I'm going to start a month long detox as of today, with no added salt or sugar, no carbs, no alcohol, no dairy. For a month. So today is day 1. Anyone is totally allowed to join my month long detox. I'm hoping to lose 5kgs/11lbs in the month. We can do this. FUCK TODAY IN THE ASS! And I've also decided that while I am fat, I am going to get a new tattoo on my shoulder... like collarbone type area. Of a peacock. I wanna get it done at the end of this month when I get paid. OH and the working title of my book so far is 'sociopath'. Basically just a story about a functional sociopath who uses everything around her to get what she wants. Well... that's kinda what I'm chowing down on right now. Hopefully, this will be my ticket to LA.
Peace & Love
Xo Xo
7 comments:
You sound frustrated honey. I feel a bit like that with every one and myself today. :-( Hope you cheer up soon xxx
I'm sorry that you're so stressed and tense. I hope your book brings you to the states. That would be wonderful. And your tattoo sounds awesome. I'm addicted to tattoos. Keep your head up darlin.
XOXO
Your detox sounds very similar to my diet on Phase 1, except I have a minimum of carbs at the minute at the doctor's request. 11lbs should be doable. I did 10 in two weeks like that.
The tattoo idea sounds great, would love to see it when done. Same with your book, I'd love to read it when you've done. I hope everything works out for you :) xx
I hope the book turns out alright. It sounds interesting, and I want to read it. Your detox sound really tough too, not sure if I'd manage it. Best of luck to you xxx
Sounds like a freaking awesome tattoo! I'm planning on getting my next one drawn up after my next pay day. I freaking love tattoos. And wow, that detox...with me being fed by the work canteen, I would just not eat. But come to think of it, that sure would make me lose weight.
is it bad that the title made me giggle for like 5 minutes
and still is im sorry
i had to look up whats a shortbus - i got the movie. and then i got the slang thing i just did from Urban Dictionary and they're like "Cleverly worked into an insult when someone does something stupid." and im like: ohhhhhhhhh
IM ALWAYS BEHIND IN MY WRITING
wtf
im at 17,111 words for my short story
WHY DOESN'T IT END
hoooooot
funny. my working title is 'Nervosa'. it's about this insane anorexic bastard that has two choose between two women. xD. it's set in a land that doesn't exist (like an island near Europe) but they are so constrained from the outside world that they live like they did in ancient times so the only 'cure' they have for any mental sickness is lobotomy.
-Sam Lupin
I was rolling when I saw this title! Just love it!
Okay yeah that is not cool. Yeah we all bitch about our weight but most of the time we are trying to something about it instead of just complaining and wanting people to feel sorry for you. I don't know the friend but most of the girls I know complain because they want sympathy but do not really want to change.
I tend to have more social buddies than friends. My definition of a friend is someone who cares about me, has my best interest at heart, unselfish, calls, text, or email once in a while to see how I am doing just because they care. Of course these expectations are not met. I have no friends. Just social buddies. You guys on here are more friends than people I see and talk to in person. Pretty sad. I don't like being used and that is the case with most of these social buddies I talk to. I am not letting anybody use me. If I have something to gain from it, it is a win win.
The end of the month is around the corner. I hope you can pull it off and lose that weight but I am right behind you with trying. Better than nothing.
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