Sunday, September 2, 2012

Fucking Nay-Sayers

You know, I have this friend who is all up my ass, all the mother fucken time. She is the most negative, cynical person that I know. Worse than even my own fucking mother. She will say no, do this. Do that. don't do that. She is also fucking so shallow when it comes to men. Like every guy I've ever dated, she has told me he was ugly. Every guy that wants to date me, she will call him ugly as well. And let me tell you. She is no fucking oil painting. She is such a fucking cunt sometimes. Like now, I was telling her about this guy from South Africa, anyway, she stalked him on facebook and proceeded to tell me how shit looking he is. And remember I said I want to write a novel, well... I've kinda decided what its going to be about etc, and she fucking goes and rips into that idea as well. Just because her life is fucking miserable and useless and she doesn't have an inch of sparkle in her pathetic life, does not mean that I am like that. FUCK HER. What. A. Cunt.

Anyway, in other news. I am leaving to go home, back to London in two short hours. Thank mutha fucken christ on a bike. I am so done with this place. And I am still fat. I had a good day on Friday, then drank a bottle of whiskey and fucked things up with the Northerner boy by telling him that I had a crush on him. And then had an epic binge day yesterday. Today is just going to be fruit. Although, I am going to get some bud later, so that may induce the munchies. I can't WAIT to be back in my flat. I can't wait to be back in London, I miss it so much. Never thought I'd say that. :) BOOM!

Is anyone still doing the challenge, because we're into month two now. I'm going to change the stats page to only have starting weight and then the most current weight. Because otherwise the table is too big. Month two <3 Love to all my piglets. Welcome to new followers as well.

Oh so my novel. I want to write a book called 'go get fucked' and its going to be a version of my relationship with my ex. All the dirty details and I mean ALL. The drugs, the sex, the cheating, the gay stuff all of it. Starting from the night we first hooked up and ending with my second suicide attempt, except I die in the book. It isn't going to be a self-help or get better eat.pray.love bullshit book. I want it to be a raw party book with no moral. Just telling of a really fucked story. Think Californication. That kind of fucked up bullshit. Yes. We. Can. What dyou ya'll think.

Love & Peace
Xo Xo

11 comments:

Unknown said...

I love the idea of your book (am writing my own, a story about my family roots)! Your "friend" can go screw herself :P

Unknown said...

Hey! I'm a newbie, I posted asking if I could still join it yesterday (or the day before? :3). My SW and Height are on the page :)
And I get the situation with your friend. I have a friend who dates these ugly guys, who is fat and ugly (about 70kg average) and never stops eating, but thinks anyone I like is ugly, and I'm apparently 'skinny but ugly' in her words.... it's horrible! They think so much of themselves and ae so judgemental, and with no right!

annamaria said...

oh, I suffer from the same thing lately. my friend does the exact same thing, cause suddenly I've gotten some more attention that usually and she's like so bitching about it. IGNORE her, really. the best thing you can do, don't argue or sth, just fucking ignore her sweetie :)

that sounds like something I would read!!

xx

Anonymous said...

Wow, your friend is wacked. Drop her. Don't let her have any effect on your life and happiness <3
As for your book... I'd read it :p ^_^ You should definitely write it! Not all books need happy endings :p But I don't like thinking that you died :( <3
-Emma

Logan said...

I hate girlfriends sometimes, i only have one that i can really rely on. I find boys are much easier to get on with. Girls just like to bitch about eachother, don't you think?
I reckon once you get back home, you will get back into losing weight. Keep hanging in there girl. x x

Atty said...

Christ I know a girl JUST like that.... Dragging their own misery into EVERYTHING.
And your book sounds WONDERFUL XD I would totally read a book like that!
A quick question: How do you keep from binging?

Anonymous said...

I think that your book idea sounds really interesting and that a lot of people would like to read something like that :)
Your friend may be miserable with her own life, jealous of you, or both, but don't let her bring you down. She doesn't need to like your boyfriends or the novels you write, it's not her business. If she is your friend she will support you regardless. You don't need that negativity in your life!
Take care <3
Alice xx

Sam Lupin said...

that friend of yours. she's a butt.
okay. i'm sorry but when you said she is no fucking oil painting, i proceeded to projectile all my emotions into a hysterical amount of laughter.
holy cunt stars. no. can i slap her
omgosh. i missed your cussing so much. only you can swear about Chris on a bike.
challenge. for my body, that only goes as "look at how much fatter you are than these people and how you're gonna die from how fat you are compared to these people."
omgosh. do it. my book is all about all the mythology i can read about and demons and shit. it's like how HP would be if it was on crack and there was a LOT of blood in it. and the humour is so freaking dry. c: love it!

-George DiCaprio

Girl With Secrets said...

I love the book idea! :)

LittleMissFairy said...

We are doing the challenge...
I have a "hater" friend too.
A piece of advice for them?
Get. A. Life.

Sorry about your "whiskey" day.
You'll do better.
You always do.
xoxo

xXTokyoVanityXx said...

It's cruel but you're rant made me smile. I had a friend like that once. Some people are only alive because it's illegal to kill them.

We all have whiskey days - usually mine is vodka but keep focus. Keep on track.

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