Don't text him. Don't text him.

I feel like, overnight I have become a weird stalkery girl again. Fuck sakes people. FUCK SAKES! Today, I only woke up at about 2pm because I went to sleep so late and I have so much work to do and I had to go to the clinic to get pills. Now, I know this is a total TMI, but I had to wait like... an hour to get my normal birth control thing, because like a cock I ran out on Friday, so I also had to get a morning after pill, because I ran out and the whole shebang. I haven't taken one in fucking years. And now I feel so irresponsible for having taken it as well. Anyway, so NOT important. These things happen, these things happen. I was meant to see Joe today, but in true Piggy-style I told him to hang out with his friends instead, cuz I'd already had my... 'chance'. But he's leaving tomorrow and I need to give him something he left at mine, so I have to see him. But all I want. ALL I WANT is to text him to tell him to come here after he's done with his friends. But I won't. I won't let him know that I want him here. I need to keep telling myself that he lives far away and it will never work. Because, it won't work. It just won't work. 

I want to try and see if I can get more work, because I'm quite bored at the moment. More freelancing work I think. Maybe for a magazine or something. I had a bit of a breakthrough with regards to my novel the other day and just exactly how I want to present the content. To people, without morals. I'm quite excited about it although I haven't been sticking to my daily requirement, I am about 20000 words in. Todays intake hasn't been great and I also haven't weighed today. But tomorrow. Definitely tomorrow. I have had about... 900 cals for today? Maybe slightly less. And all it was, was a bit of tuna and a whole bunch of steak. Just steak though. Which isn't the worst. 

Weigh in tomorrow. It will happen. 

Peace & Love

Xo Xo