Over the past few weeks, as you know. I have been doing Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide, to be specific I have been doing this for six weeks now. I am in week 7. It has been completely consuming in terms of having to eat clean and make sure that I get all the workouts in - which at the moment is five cardio sessions a week and three resistance. On days like today, I am doing exercise twice a day - once before work and now once after - resistance in the evening. I have also had monumental fuck ups as far as food - like massive severe binges, which have left me feeling fat and hopeless. It's different though. I'm a bulimic female, binge starve, binge starve and these binges are mental. This time though I have binged, carried on exercising and then gotten back on track and by some small miracle, my progress pics are still showing some difference. I mean, I am by no means bikini ready, but it isn't like I don't think I'll be there by Thailand in a few weeks.
I also have been eating way more than I ever have consistently and I feel really fucking good. I mean - it's about 1200 - 1500 per day plus about 300 - 600 cals worth of exercise, so in a MIA world, it's still right up there. It's almost like I'm learning that I can eat things and still lose weight. I know that sounds ridiculous... I actually don't think it sounds ridiculous at all. You girls know what I mean - It's like ja duh captain obvious, but maybe I can EAT!
HOLY FUCKING SHIT, I CAN EAT? *can I eat? food is still the enemy... don't be silly piggy...*
I did cardio before work this morning and I went to gym this evening *fist bump*
Maybe I can be normal? ... said the walking calorie counter.
Peace & Love