I'm not sure if the ED thoughts will ever stop... In a lot of ways going on this Kayla Itsines journey has been good for me, because it has helped me to stop the catastrophic thinking and getting completely off the wagon. I mean, I eat three balanced, smallish meals per day about 1200 cals max, I don't have many starving days at the moment (for the first time in years), but. The question that has been rolling around in my head is whether the ED thoughts will ever stop. I mean - to me, this is just another way of achieving the skinny look that is so beautiful. I will get strong and then I will be muscley and lean. Drop the calories a little more, obsessively eat clean food, no drinking and smoking. Is this any different? I suppose it's healthy in a body context, but we all know that the disease of an ED is more of a mental risk than a physical one... so... is it better? One obsession for another. Will it ever stop... I don't think so.
I leave for San Diego in two days. I will not go off track while I'm there. Salads for me.
Peace & Love