Wednesday, February 17, 2016

My Boss

I want to eat everything. I'm so terrible at not eating tons at night. I have nothing yummy to eat in the house, so it's simple enough, but I could eat the entire contents of my fridge. There is always THAT possibility, but no. I need to follow the rules. THE MUTHA FUCKEN RULES, PIGGY. THE MUTHA FUCKEN RULES. 

I have only stuck to my plan for one day and I'm already struggling. But I will learn. I will, I will. 

Today I had coffee (150), a latte (150), a can of tuna (136) with mustard (14), pot noodles (283) and a low-fat custard pot (108) which is 841 for the day. The plan is to also gradually decrease the amount of milky coffee that I'm drinking. But for this week, I'm letting myself have it. 

Also - my boss. This is a rant. My new boss. She is the reason that there is a glass ceiling for women like me - she does nothing. She has no purpose and as far as meeting company objectives is concerned - she spent two hours this morning sorting out business cards on her desk. When you ask her a question she goes on a completely hysterical, unsolicited rant. She calls it being 'passionate' but the entire office can hear her going on about it. None of the male directors respect her because she is incapable of giving an unemotional response or a straight answer. She thinks that everyone is against her because she is a woman and therefore believes that she is a feminist (she is not!). She is petrified of the CEO and so instead of driving innovation and progress in our department she fights against any kind of change. She is inert and so my department is inert. She disregards all industry best practice unless someone (lately me) shows her that it's the best way - she is fucking irrelevant. 

I cannot work for her, so I'm feeding this back to my recruiter on Monday and gonna ask him to find me some new roles. I literally can't work for a woman who does not support other women. She is giving us a bad name and I will not have her suppress me. 

Bitch, please.

Peace & Love
Xo Xo 


Bella said...

One day at a time is all any of us need to focus on. You say you've 'only' stuck to your plan for one day, but tomorrow will be another day, and that's all you can be expected to focus on.

You obviously have a lot of drive and ambition. You know where you want to be and what you need to do to get there, and this woman shouldn't stand in your way. Look out, world, here comes Piggy!


Nada said...

That sucks that you're working for someone who'd rather complain that work for progress. It's good that you're taking the steps to further your career, rather than be like her and remain stagnant and unhappy.

Also, here's some low calorie recipes for pizza.,,20419726,00.html

While binging on large amounts, even if they are low calorie, is still detrimental to your stomach lining, this might help with your mentality that you can't eat that much during the day. This helps me with binging because I get assurance that since the dinner I'll be having is low calorie, then I won't need to restrict as heavily, thus I feel less hungry and more energized throughout the day. I find that I don't even eat half of what I've made, which is a huge step from how much I used to binge.

Also, seasoned vegetables and tofu, cooked in 2 tablespoons of coconut oil with seasonings, is also very filling. The largest lump of calories comes from the coconut oil, and you can always just have one tablespoon instead of two. Coconut oil weirdly fills me up, so it might help you. Also, my hair and skin look better when I incorporate it into my diet.