Saturday, August 27, 2011
I'm so disappointed with myself. I was so ashamed I contemplated not writing this blog, because my shame is out there for everyone to see. Thank god my new scale hasn't arrived yet and I have at least another two days until Monday to be good with my intake before I weigh and measure myself. If I am really good today and tomorrow then it should be fine. And I read somewhere that if you intake in drastically higher for just one day, then you won't put on anything. This is probably a lie.
Thinspo for today is Kate Moss. I think she is probably my thinspo icon. I think she is just perfect. Except she is short so I can't compare myself to her really. But I think she is amazing. "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." Damn right. I love that you can see her bones and her cheek bones are amazing. She also has that bobble head thing happening which I love.
I wonder how long it is going to take for my scale to arrive. It feels like forever. I want to work out so hard today and dance my ass off tonight. Having thought about this quite extensively for the past few days, I don't think I have an ED. I just think that I am obsessed with my weight and the way I look. I can eat and it doesn't cause me massive anxiety. I don't want to die from being thin, I just want to look like a model - thin. And it's just about control really. Some people have more of it.