Thursday, August 25, 2011

To Begin With...

I have never been thin. Ever. The weight that I am currently is the lowest I have ever been... Not very impressive. I have never seen my ribs or my hips sticking out. I have never looked at my body and thought good things. I hate my body. I am tall, so if I'm not thin then... I'm a Sasquatch? I have been keeping to a low calorie diet of below 1500 calories to have gotten this far, but it's not working and it's not enough. I don't believe in healthy lifestyles and exercise nonsense. I believe calories in need to be as low as possible. I have tried every diet. And here I am. From now on I will be eating less than 1000 calories per day, inclusive of liquids. I will exercise as much as possible. My new scale arrives tomorrow (the other broke, probably from having my unfortunately large self on it every day) and I will be measuring myself once a week.

Giselle has the most awesome body and is beautiful - I think. Wouldn't mind looking a little more like her. Definitely want her stomach.

Can't imagine what it would be like to not mind if people saw me without full cover-up clothing on and I was happy with the way I looked.

1 comment:

AnaKat6661 said...

Hey honey. It's nice to find somebody else to relate to. Keep your chin up angel, you'll be fine :) You're stronger than you think.

Much love,

AK xoxo