Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Oh To Starve...

I'm on my fucking mission again to get back down and today I managed to fruit fast pretty much. I've had three nectarines (39 each = 117cals), a landslide of tea (100ish), a low-cal monster (45) and coffee this morning with honey (40). So not too bad for today I suppose. I won't even tell you what I weighed this morning, because it was disgusting even with a day of fasting. I must say. I felt really really tired this morning at work. Like my brain just wasn't functioning. I may eat tomorrow... I'm thinking something low... About 500 maybe. Anyway, let's see. Thanks to everyone for being supportive, but I know what I'm doing. As much as it pains me to say this and I don't mean it in any kind of bad or condescending way. BUT. Recovery is not a route for me. I don't ever want to recover and I don't think I need to. Best of luck to those that are, you are stronger than I am. But recovery isn't for me. I am this way and I'm fine with it. 55 here I come... Again!

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

3 comments:

Miranda said...

When it comes down to it you gotta do what you gotta do to exist in your body as sad as that sounds. Just watch your health. That's all I can say, but I can't say that I blame you for going that route. I'd starve too except even that doesn't work for me anymore.

ꜛⱴאּ Sⱥm ŁupiƝ ҂ said...

i was waiting for the food then i realised it didn't exist
bby :( hold on ok <3
TELL ME YOUR WEIGHT AND THEN GIVE IT TO ME
500ish is good ok
:( awwwwww don't worry. i'm not going to push you into recovery. <3
'again!' i died laughing.
i'm sort of fucking up recovery with Ramadan (i'm like eating like a mouse) - today, 2 slices of pizza gave me a searing stomach ache for 2.5 hours! i kid you not! it was horrible!

-Sam Lupin

Madison said...

Good luck sweetie xx