Wednesday, July 10, 2013
So I faced the scale this morning and... 64.9. CRY! It sucked so fucking hard, but on the plus side. I'm going to kick this stupid food habit. You know what it is. When I look at thin people, I look at them and say to myself. "They have their shit together. They eat normally, they aren't ruled by their stomachs. They control their bodies. They don't eat in public. They don't binge on chips and fried chicken. They ALWAYS have americanos and not flavoured lattes." I want people to look at me this way. Anyway, fucking stupid bullshit. Today I've had two salmon fishcakes (560cals - CRY), half a salad for lunch (150ish), some mango (negative cal food) and some yoghurt (100 cals). So that's actually quite a lot. But I suppose at least it is around 1000. Tomorrow I'm going to skip breakfast and lunch and then have some fruit and soup for dinner. So let's hope that it is around... 600ish. Although, I'm meant to be having a drink tomorrow with a friend. So maybe one glass of white wine. Why is life so hard?