Thursday, April 24, 2014

Fuggit.

So I still haven't weighed myself... I have been toying with the idea of only weighing myself once a week - not because I am becoming any less obsessive, but I seem to think that maybe if I do that then I will be more responsible across a longer period of time. So if I want to binge, my thinking is that I will cut it short because I can fuck up a whole week like that. I'm not actually, like. legit sure it will work at all. But I kinda think it's worth a try. Have any of you out there tried it - did it work/help/hurt? 

Anyway, so yesterday wasn't terrible, but it wasn't great. I went on that date with the Jewish doctor. He's really, really nice and a total gentleman. He didn't try to get handsy or nothing. Although I did act like a TOTAL FUCKING SPAZ when we were saying goodbye. Like I waved and ran to the opposite platform. Really, Piggy - REALLY!? 

Anyway, so intake for yesterday was special K with almond milk for breakfast - 160, soup - 140, about half a bottle of white wine (300), two whiskeys (100) and two shots of tequila (200) - then I got bad when I got home and ate a bunch of chips, so about... 600? So that's about 1400 for the day. Not great. 

I still didn't weigh this morning... I'm going to weigh on Monday I think... Sunday maybe. You know what - SOD IT! I'll weigh tomorrow, I at least need to know where I'm starting right?

Today was better - I had cereal (170), soup (140) and pasta (400 - probably less). So today was a decent 710 and I'm happy with that, I mean I can get it lower, but for now, I am eating three meals a day which really helps with the binging I think.

The about the doctor, his name is David. The thing about David is that he keeps going on about how pretty and awesome I am. He called me hot - like can you even!? I think he's lying. 

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

4 comments:

Ashley Nichole said...

You're wonderful.

Believe it.

Faye said...

I'm so glad you did it, and I wish you much happiness on future dates with David... your goodbye wasn't spazzy, he's probably obsessing over the next time he'll see you, because you slipped so abruptly between his fingers... men are like that. ;)

As for the scale thing... I'm only able to weigh once a week right now, and it plays hell on the imagination. I literally watch myself getting fatter and fatter all week, then get a chance to weigh and it's a shock when I've lost instead of gained, as expected.

I'm very scale-dependent, though. If I had access to it, I'd be on it every day, I'm kind of accustomed to the scale telling me every morning how the rest of the day is going to go, which outfit I should wear, etc... but it's nice to see losses in terms in pounds instead of ounces.

Emily Carter said...

Date sounds like ti was a fun time. As for the weighing; once a week is good but I would warn not to do it the same day every week unless you are able to not binge. When I weighed myself the same day every week it made it easier to plan binges. My fucked up thinking rationalized that binging and purging wouldn't matter because I would have a couple days to lose weight before I had to weigh myself. Good luck with everything!

Emily

Emily Carter said...

Date sounds like ti was a fun time. As for the weighing; once a week is good but I would warn not to do it the same day every week unless you are able to not binge. When I weighed myself the same day every week it made it easier to plan binges. My fucked up thinking rationalized that binging and purging wouldn't matter because I would have a couple days to lose weight before I had to weigh myself. Good luck with everything!

Emily