So re: my last post - it would seem that we are all struggling to sleep like normal people. I haven't read too much about the links between anxiety, eating disorders and sleep disorders. But obviously there is one. (WHERE ARE THE PSYCH MAJORS?) We know that there is a link between anxiety and sleep right? But throw in an ED there, what's the conclusion? Anyone care to share...
So also from comments on yesterdays blog - yes, I know I am overthinking it. The thing is that I fucking demonise him. Every time I see him, it's almost like this huge sigh of relief. I build him up as this villain in my head and then when I see him, it's like - Nope, this one is a good apple.
Neither of us could sleep last night, although his problem was jet lag. So it was a really lovely combo of cuddling and chatting. I'm so in love with that one.
I still don't have a scale, but nutritionally, I think I'm doing a'ight. Yesterday, I had about 600 calories - but then this morning, fuck me - I was so uncontrollably hungry, I was like three seconds away from pouncing on a baby and eating it. I just couldn't. Despite that though, I've had biltong (70), chicken (140), two ryvitas (92) with cashew butter (120), pomegranate (46) and pesto pasta (340). So today's total still wasn't too bad at 808.
I'm really hoping that when I eventually weigh, it'll be super close to 67. But who knows?
Peace & Love