Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Back on the Sauce

Well ladies, after a year - I am back on prozac. I'm just not coping at the moment with a lot of things. I am angry and irritated most of the time. My sunshine has gone and I just hate everything. I ripped into the German yesterday like a rabid bear. He just wasn't being helpful at all while I was ranting and yes, that is mostly because he doesn't know me very well. I mean - at all really. You know like when someone keeps asking you if you're angry to a point that them asking actually makes you angry? That's kinda what happened last night. Anyway, he handled it very well. I ended up eating like an animal last night - another reason to go back on prozac, because it is used to treat bulimia... i.e. the binging part of it. Work is shit, I officially hate it. Fuck. My. Life. I hate everything.

Hate & Anger
Xo Xo

13 comments:

ꜛⱴאּ Sⱥm ŁupiƝ ҂ said...

honestly when you're in that state - you can be angry a pot of yoghurt and i'd get it. it's just...'THAT' state. fuck it. it's the most horrible state in the world. oh my gosh and then theres that whole analysing and debating and that shit that comes with it
not cool man
not cool
take care of yourself, alright, honey? remember: you don't have to be a sunshine to anyone. i'm glad the German took it well (if he did not take it well, then this would have been an even worse post to read).
i hope that the Prozac does something xo

i love you!!!! i know sometimes words don't matter (especially for me in that state but i love to hear them. i love validation. validation means everything)

-Sam Lupin

Anna Stone said...

Good luck with the Prozac. It worked wonders on me years ago. I know sometimes all our stress seems to boil over, which leads us to unhealthy habits such as binging, but it is normal. You're not disgusting. Non-ed people do this all the time as well, skinny, fat, average, doesn't matter. Food can be comforting. Hope you find some peace soon. Things will calm down. The sunshine ALWAYS comes after the rain <3
Oh and on the good side, at least German passed the first test of "can you handle crazy?" better to start early, so you don't waste time!

Judith Marie said...

Firstly, I second the comments that those ladies have already made above me. You're not disgusting, I comfort eat all the time, and the German, well. It happened, and that's that. I've gone absolutely ape-shit at people before and never heard from them again. I've also done the same and they've stuck by. So what happens happens.
On another note, I've been wondering more and more often now if I should prescribe myself some antidepressants. Surely daily thoughts of wanting to die is not normal. Maybe it would help. Haven't decided whether to do it or not though.

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!

Ashley Nichole said...

Omg, sorry about that, the computer wouldn't accept that I hit sent, so I clicked it a million times! Well, now it has posted a million times the same thing!

Not what I was going for, but hey, it works.

Ashley Nichole said...

Well, I hope things get better. I've been having issues with coping too, I feel like a lot of people are having issues this summer.

P.S. You're beautiful!