This is what the bathrooms at work are like after lunch everyday... and it is a strange emotion because I am disgusted by the stench when you walk into the bathroom and the fact that both stalls have been used for this very purpose. I am also really jealous that I am the one that isn't the thinniest person in the office and the resident MIA. I know that this is something that I probably shouldn't be feeling... but it is thinspirational in a way... I know who it is too... She is super, super skinny. And I saw her come out today before I went in. Altogether now in the 1,2,3 Puke Party.
Apologies again for the fact that I haven't been posting. It is because I have been eating. Far too much, like a fucking mutant. This evening for example. I had set out to have a small pasta for dinner, but I made extra so that I could take some to work yesterday and I ended up eating the entire damn thing. Which means that my optimistic intake for today which was meant to be around 700 is now way up into the 1100's. Disgusting. But on the plus side, it isn't a proper binge. So hopefully I won't have gained tomorrow. I haven't weighed in ages. I don't think I will weigh tomorrow because I had carbs for dinner. My new thing is to have carbs for lunch and then either a salad or soup for dinner. So this is what I'm going to try. This will serve two purposes, it will keep me awake in the afternoon to have a lunch of about 250 cals - carbs. And it will also make sure that I am not fucking ravenous by the time I get home and then I will actually be able to behave like a good-ana and only have a 150 cal soup dinner. This is the plan.
My German is the most perfect man *gush gush* *smittening all up in hur'*. He asked me today to write an article with him... I haven't even started my masters yet and he is on his phd in fucking engineering/maths and he has enough professional respect for me to put his name next to mine on an article. It's like an academic proposal. I don't know if I will do it, he is sending me the topic proposal later today... I think this has the potential to be something amazing. The articles and the German. I'm doing my masters in EU Law. Btws. It is the cheapest course I've found - still 8000 pounds though. But it's awesome. Would it be a bad thing if I put a paypal thing on the side of my blog... maybe some of the people that read would donate a little to the Piggy-Wants-Her-Masters-Scholarship Fund. I don't want to be cheap, but perhaps. Fuck. POVO! Anyway, just a thought.
Love & Pasta