Tuesday, September 17, 2013

MIA much?

So I know I've been gone for like... almost three weeks, but basically - you all know the reason why. It's because... *dum, dum, dum* I've been binging. And can you believe it - of course you can - I've gotten enormous. Not only am I not able to control my eating AT ALL, I have been not controlling it by eating copious amounts of takeaways. Go fucking me. Of course. Anyway, so that aside. The fact that I'm huge. I'm in the process of interviewing for a new job, which aside from being totally amazefest and which is going to allow me to be the Steve Jobs I've always wanted to be. For those that don't know - I idolise him. Anyway. Lalala. 

OH and I've also decided to become a vegan, which was... three days ago. Granted today was the first day that I actually did a proper vegan. The stupid thing about it though was of course that I accidentally ate non-vegan things. There really is dairy in everything. Anyway, but I've basically got this cool app which will sort me out, so that I can sort it out. 

I'm far too scared to weigh myself so I'm only going to do that on Friday. Today I have had around... 800 cals I think. I had soup for lunch and then pasta for dinner, which was lovely. 

I can and will get this under control. Yet. Again. 

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

9 comments:

Skylar Rainn said...

You and me both. I've ballooned so badly =[ xxx Good luck with job interview xxx

Calla Lily said...

I know how it goes! However, it's best to start sooner than later with holding yourself accountable. Weigh yourself and post it, we'll help you keep on track. Keep your head high! xoxo

skinny bitch said...

vegan awesomeness!!!
i decided to be vegetarian last march and i made the switch to veganism in august. i was pretty much vegan while being veggie except for eggs, so it wasn't too bad a transition for me, but definitely let us know how your transition goes!
don't worry about binging/putting on weight. you always say so truthfully that "there is always a binge coming," and we all have *those* moments.
i hope you get your amazefest job!

PrettyLies said...

So I'm on this insane sugar high right now so I understood all the random ADD-ness of this post.
Job- awesomesauce. I think your last one was moving locations so that was confusing.
Binging- not awesome. protein. protein helps keep you satisfied
Veganism- I tried being a gluten free vegan, and trust me, all you're going to want to eat is carbs carbs carbs. Or..you'll eat like an entire cantaloupe to satisfy your cravings. It's just..don't jump into too quickly. Because it's just going to guarantee binges and more binges, which is what we don't want.
LOVE YOU LOTS, BYE

JANE_DOE said...

I was vegetarian for about a year, and vegan for 3-4 months... mostly due to crazy stomach pains that only went away by begin vegan. im not anymore (and i still get intensely painful stomach aches now), but when i was vegan, be careful because its a common thing, that you actually gain weight on vegan diets usually. its really bizarre and i dont know exactly why, but its very common. good luck with it though! its hard to keep up (usually with non vegan friends) and very expensive (esp because i hate cooking). but i felt great when i was vegan. but mentally it made me feel like i could eat more or regularly because it was "healthy" - and thats probably where the weight gain comes from. I became less harsh with my restricting because of that. anyways, good luck!!!

Katie Elizabeth said...

Awe sweetie. I'm sorry to hear the reason why you were absent, but I'm glad you're back and writing again. I wish you all the luck with your vegan diet. I know it can be hard. Lots of love.
XOXO

ꜛⱴאּ Sⱥm ŁupiƝ ҂ said...

of course i was worried about you not posting of course of course
yeah. totally. i totally believe that you are enormous. *NOT*.
takeaways are good shit
ah. you being Steve Jobs. i can imagine this.
THERE IS DAIRY IN EVERYTHING FUCK IT.
yum pasta. forget soup though.

<3 love you - missed you - POST. SOON.

-Sam Lupin

Veronica Rose said...

Hi.
We all have days like these.. I know it sucks, but we need to relax and I'm sure "Mia" will leave us alone at least for a while, right? It happens all the time. She comes and goes :/

Emily Anonymous said...

Wow, good luck. i don't think I would ever be able to go vegan. I like meat too much. And eggs.