Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Fucken Tired Yo

So this morning I weighed in at 62.5kg, so the number is gradually getting lower and lower, getting back to 55 is going to be epic. Anyway, so it's nice to actually be feeling smaller again. My brain is so fried, I don't really know how to write this post. ANYWAY, so keeping calm and carrying on. My new job is absolute epic. I've already identified the office bulimic. She isn't that skinny, but she eats like manicly and this morning she told me that she walked to work this morning which took her two hours. Normal people don't do things like that. She walked from Vauxhall to Hammersmith. Dudes - that is a long ass way. ANYWAY. So today I had a little too much fruit on top of a Starbucks skinny latte and dinner. So I'm at around 900 for the day. Hopefully I can still maintain tomorrow or even... a little less. I'm still aiming for 62.0kg by the end of the week, but even though I've been steadily losing and not binging (DAY 6 MUTHA FUCKER), we all know that sometimes it just doesn't fucking work that way. I've been having massive problems sleeping at the moment. So to try and help myself out here instead of trying to perform on four hours of sleep, I'm going to go back on prozac for anxiety which should help with sleeping in the long run, but sleeping pills in the meantime just to make sure that I can actually rest. Last night I went to sleep at 11.30 and then woke up at 4... And have been awake since. I've still got so much work to do for my writing job, two projects left - breathe breathe. So I think I'm going to go to sleep now and then wake up early tomorrow morning and finish some of it. Yeah. Bed time I think. Anyway, I've rambled enough for ages. 

Peace & Love
Xo Xo


Miranda said...

Hope you get some rest. It's exhausting to live life without enough sleep. Glad you like your new job. That's so cool that this one worked out for you.

Ashley Nichole said...

Around January I was able to get an abundant amount of sleep, then by February I was running on just a few hours of sleep and I think my main problem was stress and anxiety.

I've tried ZzzQuil to find out that it exasperates depression, so after a month of that I stopped using it as a sleep aid. Now I've just been trying to do it the old fashioned way!

Good luck with sleep, stay strong, and good luck with your new job.

ꜛⱴאּ Sⱥm ŁupiƝ ҂ said...

a 2 hour walk??? shit. that's something.
and yay for epic job
yay for prozac
fuck four hours???
i cant function on less than eight so four is just shitty
hell if i sleep for 6 hours, i feel like i'm still a zombie
i want 62.5 give me this is greed FP
i want your weightttttt
-Sam Lupin

Scarlett said...

I worked with a girl who would either skip eating completely or devour half a tray of cookies that a client brought in. She's not fooling anyone... at least not me. 6 days without binging is AMAZING!! Keep up the good work!!