Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Prozac Nation

It is so difficult to sit in an office all day and watch everyone around me eat a hundred times in the space of eight hours and then look at me like a weirdo if I don't... I feel like - even though I don't want to go anywhere at lunch time, I feel like I may need to so that I can lie about eating. Welcome to the world of not being an anti-social recluse. On top of which, a new producer started and she sits at the desk next to me and she eats all day. And she's a tiny little french girl. Fuck. Her. For realsies. Anyhoo, the plan for this week is to not eat during the day and then have a small dinner in the evenings, which so far has been going really well. Let's hope for a sub-63 weight tomorrow - fingers crossed. I'm seeing my doctor on Thursday so I am going to get some more prozac for my anxiety - I'm starting to think that I haven't given myself enough credit for how I was going to cope with the new job, because all in all I've been doing fine. Well even. I'm more or less on top of my work - and I'm doing quite well at it too. I led my first conference meeting today and it went pretty well, with the editors and printers of the magazine. Basically, it's going really really well. I'm just always tired. Which is a problem. Now just to focus on fixing my disastrous personal life. Joe is a thing of the past... Although we still chat now and then. It's pretty much over with now. Anyway, sub-63 tomorrow. WE CAN DO THIS GUYS! 

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

6 comments:

Ashley Nichole said...

We are allowed to eat at my work and it's almost peer pressure if you don't eat something during your shift. I try just to drink lots of tea or coffee instead to get my caffeine fix on.

Good luck with the new job. Change can be hard but it is the only constant we can truly depend on.

Miranda said...

Lots of snacking in our office too. I don't go anywhere for lunch. I sit in my office and eat whatever little snacks I'm allowed for the day. It's worse at home though. I find I'm able to eat less when I'm at work; except for the work food which I do okay at limiting. Glad the job is going good.

yours said...

I couldn't agree more with the office snacking irritation. Sometimes I want to walk into the common room and just throw all the junk food away... replace it with a note that says, "there's no reason to munch all day - please simply do your work." But heaven forbid the "skinny girl" throw away the goodies - there must be something wrong with her. ;D
Just remind yourself how much better off you are by NOT acting like them. Check out my old post about office munching.
xoxo
http://beneathbones.blogspot.com/2011/11/bagel-sneer.html

ꜛⱴאּ Sⱥm ŁupiƝ ҂ said...

Prozac nation?? like the movie??
for me right now all i like to do is eat in front of people so they don't say anything. most of my meals are consumed by my lonesome but i still like it if people are around to have me eat
not right now i mean i like don't want people to have their attention on me when i eat so i'm eating foods that don't make noises when i eat them (stuff like chocolate - crisps make that weird munching noise when you eat them that i don't like to in front of people anymore)
ohhhhhhh <3 well good luck on your weigh in tomorrow i honestly don't give a damn about how much i weigh in at this current moment in time
xo
-Sam Lupin

Judith Marie said...

Firstly, can I just say HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT PICTURE?????? Makes me want to go and get more tattoos! I love it! I'd love to look like that!
And yeah, I know some skinny ass girls that seem to eat heaps. Mind you, for all I know they never eat outside of when I see them so that might explain it. Still makes me seethe with jealousy though.

Lola Bee said...

I hate hate how everyone seems to be eating and not gaining any weight and when you have a sugar free gum suddenly you put on five kilos. it is so frustrating for me!
Kudos on the new job, and yes, we need to give ourselves credit once in awhile for coping..x