Holy fuck balls crap, I'm so tired. I can't even. Compose this properly. Thanks for all the feedback firstly on the new diet ideas. I actually think its so cool how we roll in cycles and at the moment it seems like people are get realistic about their calories and intake. Second thing I need to say is a thank you to Lovelylou for the protein advice. I have been trying to increase my protein in my diet, although I find it really hard. I'm not really into protein, but I will get some yoghurt in my diet... I really hate eggs though. Turkey. Yes, turkey. Lalala, I'm sure I was saying something.
I had yoga again today and it was boss. My arms are like useless little chicken wings, I swear. I am so weak. In the new year, I am going to get into indoor climbing as well, apparently this is very complimentary with yoga. but yes, yoga today was hectic. We did a few more balance poses which was great, my hamstrings are just not flexible though. So hopefully, if I can keep the practice up for a couple of months, I'll be able to sort that shit out. I actually started to get into the meditation side of it today, which is a first for me... I think I may want to explore. Another thing I also noticed what that the position of your hands during certain poses either grounds you (palms down) or attracts more energy (palms up). By instinct, I always go for more energy, because i always think that I want to attract more good energy, but after yoga today I felt really irritable... so in my yogi experiment, I am going to try and ground myself more during practice, instead of attracting more energy. Does any of this make sense?
Today, I've had 820ish calories. SO SO much, but hell. Its controlled and today is day 4 with no binges and I'm still feeling good. zZzZzZzZzz. Which consisted of a landslide of low cal hot chocolate, rice cakes and a lamb dish for dinner. So much food. I'm really not okay with eating this much. I feel like its just... millions, but I suppose if I'm not binging its okay. I'm sorry this post is so badly constructed. fuck my brain is turning off... no more caps, no more punctuation... just zZzzZzZzZzZzzz
Love & Winks