Wow, what an amazingly positive response to my last blog. THANKS GUYS! I'm gonna check out the blog links once I've finished writing this post - thanks for leaving them. If you missed the last one, please post links to your blogs in the comments so I can follow. All my favourite people... Sammy, we must make a plan. <3
So the exciting news is that I got a call to say that one of the companies I interviewed for is going to make an offer - I am just waiting on them to get back to me with the terms, SO hopefully that will come through tomorrow, which is very exciting. I will be producing events in California, Cape Town and somewhere in Europe, to be decided. It is quite literally the hugest weight off my shoulders. The hugest. And fuck my old company in the ass! I'm literally going to their biggest competitor and this company is better than that one. So suck it, you whore GINGER BITCH! (i.e. my former boss)
I kinda celebrated today by getting two small bags of crisps and a small portion of fries, despicable I know. But that's all I've had today, so in effect it's not too bad. Yoga'd. It's fabulous. To answer J's question - I think that I am finding veganism as a healthy medium in my functional ED world. It is keeping me slim enough and still helping me to lose weight, but not through starving too much. So I'm still aiming for a lower intake than is recommended, but as long as the weight keeps coming off, I feel less panicked about eating that amount. Through that I suppose, I feel like I'm coming to a place which isn't going to eventually kill me... I mean. I would rather die than be fat, literally. I wouldn't care and I haven't in the past given two flying fucks about my health as long as I am skinny at the end of it. But I think - and it may be too early to tell as I'm only like... two months into vegan - it may actually be a way of saving my body but giving me what I want at the same time.
This friend of mine, Danny - wants to come over on Friday and spend the day with me. Him and I have known each other for about three years now. And about six months ago he tried to seduce me on his couch, but I turned him down, because quite frankly it is Danny. And I think he may be coming over to try and revisit that... in fact. I know he is. I don't know if this is something I want or if my cockfright is just kicked into overdrive at the moment. I know that at the end of the day - whatever I'm comfortable with etc etc, but I do think that I want it. But I'm trying to stick to my moral direction of stopping fucking around and making bad decisions. God, I certainly do know how to complicate my own life. Fuck it.
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