I finally managed to actually control my eating after having arrived at a point where I have not gone out for the past few weeks because I am properly disgusted in my appearance. I am still disgusted in my appearance, but I have actually managed to control myself today, which is fantastic. I looked about six months pregnant today btws. The funny thing about it is that there is this guy at my new job, which is AWESOME in case anyone was wondering. Anyway, this guy is totally all up in my kool-aid. I'm not sure that I want him to be, I mean office shenanigans are way too much drama, I don't want a beau and this dude is coming on like a fucking hurricane and I don't really want it. I'm not sure how to nip it in the bud, but - I'm going to start by NOT going to leaving drinks on Friday with the crew. I don't want to be social with them if I can help it. He is way cute though, quite a nice guy - although - he is short...er than me. Like half an inch if that. ANYWAY. Let's see shall we... :)
I also went up a grade in rock climbing today, my fingers and hands are blistered to shit which looks awful and doesn't feel great if I'm honest. I'm going climbing again tomorrow. Today all I've had to eat is a soy latte, almond milk hot choc (which is just the cals from the milk cuz it was made with cocoa) and 7 veggie fingers (335). OH and tomato sauce (or ketchup, whatevs), and a low-cal monster (40), so my total for the day is probably around 750, BUT I climbed for an hour. So nett I think is around... 150ish. Whoop. Hopefully I won't look so pregnant tomorrow.
I got all the clothing for my new 'winter look'. Which is roughly - skater girl style dresses, cardigans, a beautiful black cape and ankle boots with low heel. This with tights and lovely accessories is going to my winter look this year. Black, grey, white and a pop colour. Anyway, so I ordered them online because I have too much social anxiety to shop for clothing in an actual store... this is mainly because I am an elephant. SO, I need to lose as much weight as possible by the end of the week so that I actually look good in them. It seems unlikely.
Love & Peace