You know, it is the one single thing that I hate the most about this curse of an ED
blessing?. Even if I am within my calories for the day, like I am today... I still feel like the fattest fuck on this planet for feeling full. Or for eating enough that I don't feel empty. I hate it, I hate it, I HATE IT! It's when I feel like this that sometimes I wonder if I don't actually want to recover. Who am I kidding? Never.
I basically spent the whole weekend binging, although I didn't binge Monday to Friday last week. Today, I've had somewhere in the region of 800 cals which consisted of cereal (150), chocolate (200... I think) and fried rice (rice, peas, tomato, peppers, olive oil, mango chutney,chili and garlic - 550 is my guess). I bet it is probably more. Anyway, As long as I keep losing gradually, it will be okay. My stomach is looking flatter these days and I want to try and do a few squats per day.
Dr Dave update. He said I love you, I kinda love him too. I definitely love him loads actually. He annoys me though, but the things that annoy me about him are also the things that I love about him. He's awesome actually. He told his overly Jewish mother about my non-Jew status and allegedly, it didn't go too badly. All in all, it was a pretty good weekend for us. UPDATE on the ex-gate from last weekend - he apologised for ages. I think that sometimes I don't give him credit for being a genuinely nice guy, even though I look at these situations that he puts himself in and wonder what the fuck he thinks he is doing. As much as I gave him shit about seeing her, in his defense he never lied about it - he told me exactly what he was doing, where he was going and promised to tell me every little detail about the encounter. I guess, I'm just being a dickhead - because I'm giving him shit for being a nice guy who doesn't lie to me. Maybe I was being a bit unreasonable after all...
Weight to follow tomorrow, maybe. :)
Peace & Love