Friday, June 27, 2014

Weekends Are For Binging

I ended up having a few whiskeys last night after I blogged... and then Roy phoned me for two hours. *sigh* I still sometimes wish he'd want me back... We spoke about David and how things are with him - he seems to think that I'm broken and defensive, because I like to have my own space and don't want to be around David all the time. I kinda see it as being independent and liking my own space... HOWEVER, if that is true - MOTHER FUCKER why do you THINK I'm broken? Doesn't have anything to do with the fact that you completely fucked me up, does it!? Anyway, so I have been a bit tender today. I did lose just over 1lb this morning, I was on 65.0kg flat. Which is good. I mean. Good :)

Today, I'm disappointed and pleased with myself at the same time. I am hungover, so fucking hungover... actually no, I'm a little bit hungover and very tired, and also really demotivated. AND it's Friday and for me - weekends are for binging. Because at home a lot more, I just eat from the time I finish work till Sunday evening. It's a really bad habit that I am trying desperately to break. AND I'm hungover and tired. You know what happens when you're fucked - you EAT and you're like 'fuck my motivation, fuck this, fuck that, FUCK EVERYTHING!' Anyway, so it hasn't been going the best - I've had a bunch of tea, some doritos, two sugar free energy drinks and cereal (400), then I had dumplings when I got home with hoison sauce and two cracker breads, so 650. So total for today is 1050. Not great, but considering that I was really fucked today. It is okay. I'll be fine and hopefully I won't gain tomorrow. As long as I stay the same tomorrow, I'll be happy as a clam. 

Only two days till payday - THANK. God. 

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

3 comments:

Ruby Tuesday said...

Hi Piggy, (I feel strange calling you that because you are far from piggy)

I just wanted to stop by and say thank you for your comment on my blog
It means more than you know
I read every post you write but I don't always comment
I always look forward to your posts
You are funny and smart and eloquent
Don't define yourself by what the scale says
You are so much more than that number

Take care and I will comment more on the future x

Ruby Tuesday said...

Hi Piggy, (I feel strange calling you that because you are far from piggy)

I just wanted to stop by and say thank you for your comment on my blog
It means more than you know
I read every post you write but I don't always comment
I always look forward to your posts
You are funny and smart and eloquent
Don't define yourself by what the scale says
You are so much more than that number

Take care and I will comment more on the future x

Elizabeth said...

Ginger Ale. My hangovers used to be impossible to get through... But Ginger Ale guided me through.

Stay strong.