Tuesday, January 10, 2012

How do I even begin?

Well, it's been ages since I last posted, because I have been moving house and so not having had stable internet access, but now finally I am in - not settled, but in my new place and can start to get back to my normal routine. It is very quite.

My weight has been stable, not losing, not gaining for about a month now - fucken horrible. I mean yes 60kg is my first goal weight - yes okay fair enough, but it is not 55kg. I mean seriously fat little piggy can't even get down to 55. So I need to be 55 by the end of January. I mean it is only 1.5 a week. I can totally do this. I think from tomorrow I am going to vibe a fruit fast again, my old friend. Ease back into it. Because really, I have been eating like fucking shit since I have been gone. SO I HAVE to fruit fast. Also decided that I am going to only have soy milk instead of real milk. So let's try a bit of veganism from now on.

The boy and I are working things out and we are not back together as such, but we are fucking not apart which is nice. I am so tired. I think I am going to have a bong. Probably binge after that, because this is how we do it you know? And then from tomorrow.

I have MANGOES which I love. OMG. I need to get some sleep. I'm so sorry for my absence. I persevere to be better. MY new years resolution is still to be fearless. Fearless and 55. :D

Peace & Respect
Xo Xo


Zoie said...

fearless. i'm a fan. xoxo

Sarah. said...

welcome back! :) xxx

Kitty said...

WB :) Goodluck with everything :)

By All Means said...

welcome back :) i love the fearless resolution, thats how im trying to be too...just fearless in my endless quest to find something i like.

Atty said...

Ahhh Piggy I missed you~!!! I'm glad you're feeling better! Happy New Year.

Judith Marie said...

welcome back my pretty lady!
Gosh, you are so close to 55kg! That's well done to you! I'm sure you will be able to get there. I keep saying I will try your fruit fast, but I haven't yet. It works so well for you!

Beth said...

Oh love. I am glad you are okay!! Fruit fast, eh? I want to fast too!! just not with fruit. I want to have a tea and water fast. Lets fast. I am going to fast from tomorrow up until Sunday (don't feel like you have to compete, I am actually insane, I think..) anyways, stay strong, sweetheart.

Love you!

Rhianna said...

Sounds like your doing better =)

Fearless and 55, sounds like a great resolution =)

Hope you get into that routine soon, its always been my saving grace with all of this =)

Emma said...

Welcome back :) We missed you!
Hey, at least you maintained. That's a load better than gaining. Last winter when I lost and got down to 142 we moved and I got all the way back to 160. If I had maintained and then lost the 7 pounds I did I'd be 135. Yeah. So be glad you maintained, lol.
Be fearless <3

❤ ♥ Sam [Misha] Lupin ❥ ❣ said...

yay for settling in! George missed you, you idjit. i was just wondering where you disappeared off to, Grinch!
veganism. really sucks with me. *sigh* i mean i just had honey over a bit ago!
55kg is like...so close. <3 you can totally do it, thin-chick! ;o 5kg is nothing.
55. so cool. <3
when you get there, you'd be SO glad. :D ahahaha.
-Sam Lupin

Miss Burton said...

55 kilos - same goal like mine. oh please, please do you want to compete? it's sort of a thrill for me and i need someone who's got the same goal so are you up for it?

The fearless idea is gread - finally something real, not those "give up smoking" "lose a pound" resolutions :D this is orginal :D I like it.

how's the new house?


Jinx UnRiddled said...

Hey! my goal is 55kg by mid feb and im at 61kg (132 lbs)! Good luck and I hope we both reach our goals ;)