Well, it's been ages since I last posted, because I have been moving house and so not having had stable internet access, but now finally I am in - not settled, but in my new place and can start to get back to my normal routine. It is very quite.
My weight has been stable, not losing, not gaining for about a month now - fucken horrible. I mean yes 60kg is my first goal weight - yes okay fair enough, but it is not 55kg. I mean seriously fat little piggy can't even get down to 55. So I need to be 55 by the end of January. I mean it is only 1.5 a week. I can totally do this. I think from tomorrow I am going to vibe a fruit fast again, my old friend. Ease back into it. Because really, I have been eating like fucking shit since I have been gone. SO I HAVE to fruit fast. Also decided that I am going to only have soy milk instead of real milk. So let's try a bit of veganism from now on.
The boy and I are working things out and we are not back together as such, but we are fucking not apart which is nice. I am so tired. I think I am going to have a bong. Probably binge after that, because this is how we do it you know? And then from tomorrow.
I have MANGOES which I love. OMG. I need to get some sleep. I'm so sorry for my absence. I persevere to be better. MY new years resolution is still to be fearless. Fearless and 55. :D
Peace & Respect