So here's the thing. I've been doing Kayla Itsines for two weeks now and there is not one bleeding pound difference in my weight or any kind of streamlining in my physical appearance despite eating a diet that I hate (leading to a binge on both weekends that I've been following it) and doing workouts which I wouldn't say that I hate, but I wouldn't say that I love them either. The short of it is essentially that now I need to half my calories, up the cardio and do this the way that I know works. Staring. Ana, always knows best. Unfortunately, fat piggies like myself do not have the luxary of eating 1200 calories a day and losing weight. So starve, starve, starve, binge, starve, binge, starve is the way that my life will always be.
That being said, today I've had 700 calories, I walked for 9.5km (540 calories burnt) and did the week 2&4 full body workout. My goal for this week is to do 2 morning LISS (Low instensity steady state) cardio sessions and to NOT binge on Friday night. A little motivation: my friend who was always chubby while I was the 'hot' one (I've only known her since my ED has flared up... i.e. the last 4 years) is now at her goal weight of about 100lbs (she is tiny though height wise). So I am going to go to sleep by 11pm tonight so that I can get up at 6.30 and go for a 35 minute brisk walk/run.
Yes. We. Can. Ana will always win. Ana always knows.
Peace & Love
P.S. Oh ja, I'm not pregnant *fucking streamers* - good, because I'm obviously NOT preggo, but bad, because then it does mean that the only reason I'm not losing weight is because I'm a tub of lard. Great.