So today marks the beginning of week 2 of Kayla Itsines (for those that commented on my post about this a recently, I will send the books tomorrow - things have been a bit busy!) and it's...er... it's going. Last week was fucking miserable - I was in the worst mood in the world. Fat, fat, fat. And yeah, just the worst mood. I definitely netted less than 1000 on every day that I did it and then on Friday and Saturday I went over... way over. No, lies. It was crazy binges, but it was high. Yesterday was fine. Today my intake was around 1100, but I did a lower body and cardio work out. So I'm sure it's below 1000. To be honest, I'm not losing weight. I'm sure though if I just persevere something will eventually happen right? Anyway, I WILL BE POSITIVE!!
I'm hurting all over. I am irritated that I'm just as fat as I was last week, my belly looks enormous. (MAYBE I'M PREGNANT!! Take a test, Piggy...) Yeah, so. I dunno. The plus side is that I don't feel as miserable as I did last week, the whole like... getting up earlier to make food is getting easier. The working out is made possible courtesy of all the thinspo (fitspo?) on instagram. I WANT TO BE STRONG AND SKINNY. And I'm determined to finish 12 weeks. The goal for this week is clean eating. No cheating. All the way till Sunday.
I haven't had booze since the 2nd or cigarettes. I will do this. I'm so fat though :(
Fat & Fat (but somehow, upBEAT!)