I have been wondering recently what it must be like to not care, like before we had EDs. You know. Put things in your mouth. Not give a crap if we were normal sized, chubby cheeks, no thigh gaps, flabby arms, double chins, fat knees, no collar bones... Not fat, just normal sized. When everyday wasn't the start or continuation of a new diet. Seeing the world in calories and numbers and sizes, fuck man. What a life to not think about all this shit... Wow.
Anyway, I have decided that I am doing a raw food thing for the next two weeks. Only raw. Which could be kinda cool, cuz I can eat other stuff... As long as it's raw. Today I have had about 460 cals, which has consisted of a salad of spinach, rocket and watercress, tomatoes and half an avocado, blueberries, two clementines and two cups of coffee with honey. I know the coffee with honey isn't raw, but taking my coffee.. would prolly kill me.
Nonetheless, things are going well in the Piggy household. Just so much fucking work to do. As for my company, I have found a developer to finish off the site, which is great. I have so much work to do at the moment, I'm not sure how I will ever find time for this. But one day at a time.
Thanks for all the lovely comments, and I apologise for talking about men so much. I think it's me trying to distract myself from the fact that I continue to be heartbroken and they provide distraction from this. Coco is keeping me together. Much love!
Peace & Love