I need it to be gone now. I need it to all be gone. Why why why is my ass so fat, my arms, my stomach why why why!?!?!?!?!? I feel like I try so hard and yet.. Fuck it dudes. I need the fat to be gone. I stand and look at myself and I wish I could grab a pair of scissors and cut it the fuck off. WHY WHY WHY won't it just go away. I'm never eating again. From now, I need it to be gone. I don't care if I look sick, it just needs to go the fuck away. My knees are disgusting. My fat fat arms. It's disgusting. It needs to go away. GO AWAY, no matter how far I come, I'm always just the fat piggy that started this stupid blog. Except now I have a broken heart to add to the equation. Fat fat fat. Fat, ugly useless piggy. Disgusting. I am disgusting. I need to go back to London, this town is suffocating me, it's like I'm back in Cape Town again. Fat ugly, miserable piggy. Disgusting and useless. With all this meat on my bones. Where are my bones? My bones don't exist, because I am a farm animal covered in meat. I may as well get slaughterred and put out to pasture. No wonder Roy didn't want me. No wonder. I shouldn't have got Gremlin, because now I have to stick around. Why can't it just disappear. :( I need it to disappear NOW!
Broken & Bruised