So it isn't great, but the silver lining is that I had my dumplings and I lost half a kg (1lb) and I didn't gain. I also wasn't feeling too tired at work today, so it seems my body is getting used to the ana-way again. But then of course today I had to go and fuck it up. I have had 2 cups of coffee with honey and milk, a tuna salad with goats cheese, pot noodles with pesto and some pom bears, a zero cal monster, two cups of tea and an americano from Starbucks. I would guestimate that I am in the region of 800 cals. Which isn't bad and probably similar to what I was yesterday- again. Hoping to not gain tomorrow - maybe even lose. I'm actually really proud of myself. Because I was going to order pizza and then I ended up not. Just because I want it too badly to fuck it up now and I'm actually not hungry anymore. More greed and than anything else.
My friend and her fiance - who have been together for five years and whose wedding I was meant to go back to Cape Town for in December - just broke up. Well he broke up with her, because he has been cheating on her for the past five months. So it looks like that isn't happening. Proof that every, even the happiest of couples, go to shit at the end of the day. Nothing lasts and you can trust no one.
Sadness & Flubber