So, after all the trauma that accompanied seeing that miserable whore of an ED specialist. FUCK HER! I have decided that I want to weigh 55kg by the next time she sees me. Which is in a week and a half. I think 3kgs is easy enough to lose in about ten days. So the plan essentially is to fruit fast until then. I am of course allowed coffee and wine. NOTHING else though. And coffee with soy milk, not yukky cows milk. Anyone want to join? She says I look "fine", so that is what I will make myself. Fine. I think I will look fine at 55. At 50. So fuck her. Miserable fucking bitch.
Thank you for all your lovely comments on my last blog. It was trully horrible. I have not, and I repeat HAVE NOT decided to recover. I don't want to recover. I am not putting on weight. I am not eating normally. I am not recovering. I have nothing to recover from. The way that I am is not wrong. FUCKING BITCH! I am only seeing her to make my psychologist happy. And since the specialist thinks I am fine. Then, confirmed, there is no fucking problem. Whore bitch.
I am having an interesting time with my psychologist at the moment, because our sessions are becoming more conversational. Which is absolutely lovely :) I really really adore her. She helps me see things that are problematic in my life. At the moment she is helping me out with my complicated boy situation. I have resigned myself to the fact that I may need to move... since. Well. Sexing your housemate is not a good idea especially if he thens fall in love. Fuck sakes. He only lost his virginity at 24. Not that I am judging, but this says a lot about the clingy individual I am dealing with. Saying this however, I know the whole fucken thing is 100% my fault. *fucking sigh* There is another boy who is 22 and HAWT! He is really into electro music and invited me to a braai at his house on Sunday... so I am going to have to look all sexy. Hopefully will still be going strong on the fruit fast, so will be in 57's. How could he say no? :p
Anyone wanna do a ten day fruit fast with me? Today I have had one cup of coffee with a dash of fat free milk and a teaspoon of honey. A small bunch of grapes and a nectarine. I think I will have mango for dinner. And at least another 1.5l of water. Yes we can! Let me know. We can make a challenge? Maybe... I dunno. FUCK ED SPECIALIST MUTHA FUCKERS! AMANDLA!
Love & Kate Moss