Monday, February 27, 2012

No more ED for me - dumb WHORE!

It is official. I hate that shrink fucking ED specialist whore fucking bitch. For fucking fuck sakes. Today I went to see her and she looked around the waiting room, stared at me twice and then walked off. She didn't even fucking recognise me. Not that I blame her mind you, because that stupid fucking bitch wouldn't think I have an ED. Understandable I guess, since I am after all a little piggy. I mean no one can mistake me for having a problem. So therefore, I have decided that I do NOT have an eating disorder. Fuck these people. There is nothing wrong with the way I eat or do not eat. So they can kiss my ass. That fucken bitch is getting nothing from me now. I am going to lie about what I eat and I refuse to let her weigh me. Anyway, so the short of the whole situation is that I just left a message with my normal shrink to call me. And I explained the situation and told her I didn't want to see that WHORE again, but she said she really wants me to. So hence my plan.

Anyway, I am a fat disgusting piggy at the moment. So, again I am starting another fasting week. Today, didn't entirely fast, but I definitely had less than 500 cals. I had coffee with a little milk and some honey (I swear I'm addicted), a small bunch of grapes and a tiny bowl of thai curry. So I think I am okay. Tomorrow, I want to hit the fruit, black coffee and coke zero. So if I can keep it below 500 for the rest of the week, I think I should be doing fine.

Fucking fuck sakes. Anyway, so this lilypad is driving me nuts. And I must just add to Sammy - I'm WAITING FOR YOU BABY!!!!!! <3 Anyway, but this boy is just... *sigh* so perfect. But yet again, like it was two years ago - are we aren't we. And then I don't think he will ever commit, because he doesn't want to disappoint people. So - I think I shall keep my options open. Or just not be a clingy mess as I am prone to being... Anyway, I think I just need to get to London.

Fuck sakes. Feel vaguely depro again.

Love & Blondes
Xo Xo

4 comments:

Cryotaneko said...

I feel you about the ED thing. Recently this ex-friend of mine has been being very bitchy, but she knows about my eating.. ehh.. let's say "oddities" and she seems to want to tell everyone. once she does, I already have a picture to post, saying "I think about telling someone, but then I look in the mirror and I think 'I'm too fat to have an eating disorder'" but I really believe that to be true. How sad <3 Stay strong lovely, and thanks for commenting on my blog

❤ ♥ Sam [Misha] Lupin ❥ ❣ said...

P and i haven't been talking about my ED so i'm just like 'it's not that big of a problem if she doesn't talk to me about it, hence i'm excluded.' totally know whatcha mean, love.
go to London, babe!
shit. i was gonna apply to some unis in London but they are so freaking competitive. medicine in London? for-fuckign-get it! unless 1) you're loaded 2) you're a fucking genius that shoots IQ out of their ass.
AND YOU BETTER BE WAITING FOR ME. YEAH.
i need to commit to this stupid cabbage soup diet. 6 more days to go. i can survive.
-George DiCaprio

Judith Marie said...

Babes are you in London??? I'll be there later in the year! Well, I'll be in Bristol for 2 months but that's just a stone's throw away from London.

Can't you get another ED specialist? If your usual shrink really wants you to see one can't you at least pick one that you like? Surely that's not too unreasonable.

Charlotte said...

Girl just drop the shrink altogether.. We can deal with our ana all by ourselves :)... And im doing abc diet starting tomorow (scary) and its totally gonna be worth it!! Ok lots of luv to my favorite fat piggy lol!
Forever and Always,
Charlotte <3