I know this is probably a weird fucking thing to say and I am no robot, but I fucking HATE the things that make us human. How people are dependent on eating pisses me off. That we have to go to the bathroom embarrasses me, or that we are prone to illness. Women and our periods. I hate all of it. I pride myself on never getting sick, like the flu or a cold. I haven't been sick in years, it's like I don't allow myself to get sick. And then minor niggly things like bladder infections or whatever - those thangs that us ladies are prone to getting - I hide that shit like the plague. Like it is hugely embarrassing for me to be sick or need medical attention at all.
But then there is the eating thing. When I have lived with boys this dependence that people have on food was highlighted and it fucking disgusts me. That I even have to eat at all disgusts me. It's like all they were doing was in search of the next food. It's like a drug for them. And it's gross. I mean a couple of hours ago, my flatmate woke up and went into the kitchen to get more food and he bent over ass crack sticking out rummaging for food in the fridge. There is nothing wrong with what he was doing but for some fucking reason, it just totally offended me.
Look, I'm not saying I am a robot or that I want to be. Because sadly, I too need to eat and use the bathroom. OH WAIT... no hang on. Not even going to get onto that topic. But seriously. It fucking kills me. Perhaps something that I need to cover with my therapist shortly.
Anyway as for today, I have eaten 1 pear. And that's it :) Tomorrow, I am going to have a banana for breakfast, some more fruit for lunch and then soup for dinner. Anyway, sorry about the rant.
Love & Peace