I finished two assignments last night, so now I am going to get my first British paycheck! YAY!! Well. It's a pittance because I only worked for a week, but still! YAY! Anyway, so now I am back to the drawing board with jobs, because I do still want a full time job. Although, if I can make a decent living doing freelance, that would also be great since I'd love to work from home. I am a recluse. I actually know that I am a total recluse. Anyway, so I am going to move out to zone 6 in London away from the noise of the city. I think I will be happier out there. :)
Anyway, yesterday we got stoned and then I ate EVERYTHING. Well cookies, peanut m&m's, more cookies, more chocolate. Gawd. How awful.
Today however I have only had two chocolate disgestives. I'm going to have a cup of tea or coffee and go to bed. So my total today will be about 200. I need to get my bank card since I can't draw any money, I have no money. FUCK FUCK! Anyway. Then it is fruit and soup. I still have so much soup to eat. My goals for now are to not binge until the weekend. Five days of 500 cal restriction, preferably NO more chocolate disgestives. Also, I am to make 2000 GBP this month from my writing. Which means I need to do 500 a week. Which is a lot, but I think I can do it if I work hard. Fuck balls.
So a little boy drama. The skinny is basically that my ex and i are doing a long distance thing till he comes here in August. While we were on break he got that bitch whore pregnant. AND this bitch whore is a friend of his best friends girlfriend, so she's still around even though they aren't seeing each other. IT's his birthday tomorrow and he was meant to have dinner with these friends and they fucking invited her. So I pitched a total fit and he cancelled his dinner. I mean, they are meeting him for a birthday dinner WHY INVITE HER!? I think the bestfriends girlfriend hates me - she always wanted her stupid whore friend to hook up with my boy. GODDAMMIT! I hate actually talking about this since I am the stupid girl that is still with him. Fuck. I don't think I freaked too bad, I told him if he saw her at dinner we are through. HE could just uninvite her. Then he cancelled. But what the fuck is the bitches problem?? I want to call her and tell her to stop trying to get him with the whore. Ah fuck it, I never say names, but hers is Amanda. This bitch whore Amanda also got drunk with us one night when we first hooked up and was dirty dancing with my boy at a club. I fucking hate her. I want to rip her goddamn face off! SO mad. Anyway, it's not important. I will get over it eventually. I hope.
Fuck balls. OH new game of thrones! Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
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**EDIT** - the bitch whore had an abortion thank god, I forgot to mention this. So she doesn't need to be around any of us. And I also know that it isn't technically her fault, I mean he fucked her. But the anger remains... and EDIT THINSPO!