I don't know what to say except I am a fat miserable fat ugly piggy. Fuck sakes. I just binge all the time. Goddamn. Okay. not all the time, but I did binge yesterday. No ciggies, alcohol or drugs for me. I also am giving myself one more week to find a full time job. Or I am going to work in a deli or something equally shit. Fuck. My. Life.
I need some assurance from my boy whether or not he is actually coming here. Because he is giving me shit because I am not factoring him into my life decisions, but he won't commit to a time to come here. Fuck fuck fuck.
I hate myself today. I fucking hate myself.
Hate & War