Well, I actually managed a day of fruit and restricting calories today quite reasonably I'd say. And more importantly than that, I managed to stay within the detox. To be honest though, according to the original detox I saw, I wasn't allowed any dairy, caffeine and artificial sweetener. I still have coffee with milk though. Because god be damned, if I don't get that. I'd shrivel and die. And then with that is the new Monster Zero Cal. It is my new favourite zero cal energy drink. So, fuck it. I had one of those. But it terms of staying away from chrisps and chocolate, pasta, pizza and bread and shit, I have managed six days. Only 24 to go. Tomorrow I am going to try to stick to 800 again. The benefit of drinking so much coffee is that it really does work as an appetite suppressant. I am mutantly paranoid however that my teeth are going to turn brown. I have this weird obsession with teeth. I do pay a lot of very close attention to peoples teeth. If I'm looking at a dude, he can't have nasty teeth. Maybe crooked is fine, but like nasty decaying and British. NEIN!
I feel like I'm having a fairly spectacular rant right now... Oh so what I did today. I went out with this friend of mine to Greenwich and we chilled in the park and drank coffee. Then missioned to get a bit of cabbage and came back to mine. It has been cool, because she's ED so there is no pressure from her to eat. Which there is with most friends. If you spend more than four hours with someone the topic of food is likely to come up and she doesn't think I'm strange for saying no. It's cool. I have smoked an exponential amount of cheese tonight and this may be a stoned mumble...
I am so fat at the moment. My cheeks are just so enormous. I am enormous. I am however determined to lose all of it by the end of February. I saw a list of 100 greatest novels of all times. On that list, there were two that I had read. Both of them were books that were prescribed to me in second year English literature... it may have even been first year. ANYWAY, my point is. And I know this next statement makes me a bit of a freak, but I don't read a lot of books. I read when I'm on the tube which is rarely. A book takes me months to finish. The reason why is: Law school. I had to read SO much in law school, it just about drowned me. And now, I just associate reading with wanting to fall asleep. Because of the amount of time you spend reading as a law student. So I don't read a lot of novels. That's my dirty little secret. What's yours?
Peace & Love