Sunday, January 27, 2013

Bang Those Drums

I suppose I should say something profound and meaningful today. But I just don't really have that much to contribute. Day 7 of the detox is completed and I still have had only the things that on the detox. Nothing else. I was thinking maybe of continuing this 'eating plan' after the 30 days is over and giving myself one 'open day' a month where I can eat things that aren't on the detox plan. I didn't weigh this morning because my friend was here and by the time she left I had already had a cup of coffee and then its just not accurate. But then I also ate a mountain of fruit, so I doubt I will have lost very much. Actually. Wow, still nothing meaningful to say... Ladadidadida. 

This week is going to be quite busy with work, so I have spent today sort of gearing myself up for it. I'm going to go to sleep in about an hour and then hopefully get an early start tomorrow. La dum. BANG BANG BANG BANG! 

I'm starting to feel anxiety about going back to South Africa in two months, because what if no one wants to see me and I end up sitting around like I do here. I mean, I know in theory that it just won't happen, but I don't want to be that sad person that came back and no one remembered that I existed. God, ANXIETY. 

I so desperately want to have a crush on someone, but no one that I meet even comes remotely close to someone that I could see myself dating. I mean, I know that I'm not a relationship person because I am so insanely picky about men. But I miss having butterflies and someone to direct some positive energy into. Fuck sakes. 

Love & Deep Breathing


8 comments:

Skylar Rainn said...

Congrats on your 7 day detox!!! I, however, did a 7 day binge! xxxx

Penny_Nicole said...

I'm about to move back home and have purposefully kept it a secret bc I have the same fear...that people won't have even noticed I was gone!

August Michaels said...

I've been reading your blog for a little bit and am glad you post more frequently than others I'm following. Maybe you explained in other blogs, but I haven't read back too far. Why are you going to SA? I went there this past summer and it was awesome. Can't wait to hear back from you!

Emily Anonymous said...

That's a fear I've felt too. Actually, it became sort of a reality for me because whenever I come home from college no one wants to hang out with me save for maybe one person once during the summer. I have no friends anymore back home.
But if you're going back to your family, at least they'll remember you, and you seem like a person that will reach out and MAKE others remember you! That's only if they don't. But the probably will.

Katie Elizabeth said...

You are doing so well on your detox. I'm so proud of you. 7 days! That's awesome. South Africa sounds lovely, and I doubt no one will remember you. You are a special person =) Lots of love.
XOXO

Miranda said...

I worry about coffee teeth but so far so good. I always drink coffee out of a straw. The coffee stirrer kind usually. I think it helps. Glad you are staying on track.

ꜛⱴאּ Sⱥm ŁupiƝ ҂ said...

life is shallow and meaningless if you look at it in a certain way, completely profound and meaningful if you look at it in another way so your post may harbour some meaning and intellect to those with strange perceptions <3
a mountain of fruit. probably still did. lovely how low-cal fruit actually is.
anxiety is shit. its like even if you know its not possible, it just kills
and yes, congrats on day 7!
-Sam Lupin/George DiCaprio

sofia said...

congratulations on sticking to your detox and good luck with work and planning for south africa! (:

stay lovely. <3