I suppose I should say something profound and meaningful today. But I just don't really have that much to contribute. Day 7 of the detox is completed and I still have had only the things that on the detox. Nothing else. I was thinking maybe of continuing this 'eating plan' after the 30 days is over and giving myself one 'open day' a month where I can eat things that aren't on the detox plan. I didn't weigh this morning because my friend was here and by the time she left I had already had a cup of coffee and then its just not accurate. But then I also ate a mountain of fruit, so I doubt I will have lost very much. Actually. Wow, still nothing meaningful to say... Ladadidadida.
This week is going to be quite busy with work, so I have spent today sort of gearing myself up for it. I'm going to go to sleep in about an hour and then hopefully get an early start tomorrow. La dum. BANG BANG BANG BANG!
I'm starting to feel anxiety about going back to South Africa in two months, because what if no one wants to see me and I end up sitting around like I do here. I mean, I know in theory that it just won't happen, but I don't want to be that sad person that came back and no one remembered that I existed. God, ANXIETY.
I so desperately want to have a crush on someone, but no one that I meet even comes remotely close to someone that I could see myself dating. I mean, I know that I'm not a relationship person because I am so insanely picky about men. But I miss having butterflies and someone to direct some positive energy into. Fuck sakes.
Love & Deep Breathing