Well, it has been so so long since I last posted, okay well a week. But in that week, I feel like a lot has happened. I managed to fast until the 30th, when I went out and had a completely mental party with these absolute douchenuggets of individuals, but nonetheless had a pretty good crazy party. I actually am starting to think that I need to write a journal about my partying escapades, because they seem to just get crazier and crazier. ANYWAY, I really won't get into that night. But hellz bells. Anyway, so New Years eve rolled round and I was feeling... alright. Because of the drinking, there was a little eating and I wasn't feeling as thin as I may have liked by the time I left the house that evening. But I did end up having the most smashing time ever. I got ridiculously drunk (DRINKING ON AN EMPTY STOMACH FTW) and made out with a very cute boy... and then his friend, who turned out to be a better option, because he then shoved me into a cab and dragged my fabulous ass off to a party in Euston in an abandoned factory. Now let me state for the record that I was far too old to be there and far too... uptight lets say. There were no lights. No toilets. Just really loud music, strobe lights and fucked teenagers EVERYWHERE. Everyone was on drugs, everyone was on their own mission. We did a little bit of MDMA and then things got exponentially better. We then left that party, because the dude wanted to buy some coke. Which he did. aNd A LOT OF IT. And then we went back to a house party in Morden. And then something completely magical happened. I met this guy. Who is perfect. I have never had that kind of connection with a man since my ex and I sat on this hill on mushrooms talking for hours. And that is what I did with this boy. His eyes completely swallowed me. It was magical. The ballache of it all is that he has a very lovely polish girlfriend. However, I only met her the next day because she was sleeping. We exchanged contact details. I said to him that I respect his relationship with her and I would never want to break anyone up, but I think he's perfect and if he ever wants to give me a call, then he must give me a call. I haven't heard from him. Which is sad. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I found someone. Someone perfect. And that tells me. That there must be other perfect people out there. I'm not alone in this world. And Roy was not my soulmate. OH THE RELIEF!! I know it is so crazy, but I honestly never ever thought that I could totally be myself around another person who just one hundred and fifty percent gets me. And I did. And it didn't take me years to find him. so, there will be another. I can't tell you guys how much optimism that gives me.
2013 started on a great note. Now if only I can get down to 50kgs. So I'm realigning. This optimism has given me new strength to start myself eating in a way that will get me there. I didn't eat for two days besides the alcohol and then feeling like ass and needing to work, I crammed myself full of nasty stuff. Although. Not actually THAT much. So today I have had a small pot of peaches (91) and a coke light (0). I'm going to make myself some thai vegetable curry later and there will be coffee, because I have a lot of work to do. Tomorrow, I'm going to visit a friend in Reading. I'm quite excited. I have such a good feeling about 2013. I hope everything is going well for you all also. :) Maybe, I won't have to walk this road alone.
Love & Peace