I have a friend who is currently going through AA - working the steps as it were - and I started wondering if there is anyone who has connected with EDA in the US or internationally. I'm not entirely sure what my fascination with these types of support groups. In a way, I wish that I had people that I could talk honestly with about my shit. If you could just talk about the obsession and how exhausting it is. I don't really know honestly if I'm open to the idea of working steps, because I still don't 'want' to get better. But it would be great to have some people who are functional... eating disordered. Is anyone else interested in this kind of thing? Maybe, I dunno. Maybe, I might be interested in getting a group together and we can like... help each other. It's so fucked up isn't it?
Anyway, yesterday's fast didn't quite happen. *shock* I ended up on 500 cals for the day which involved a kale stirfry and some weight watchers layered fruits fromage frais. Today the plan is coffee and diet LILT until 7pm then more kale stirfry and some fromage frais.
I'm so fat. I wish someone would hear me.
Peace & Love