Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Listen Up Fat Asses

If you are looking for a sign, THIS IS IT. I am SICK. I am sick and fucking tired of listening to you bitch about being fat. The buck stops here. You don't need to wait till Monday to start a fast, a diet, a new eating plan. You don't have to wait till tomorrow morning. Put down the cake, step away from the fridge and start now. Every time you say no to food, you say yes to being thin and eventually you will find yourself saying no, more than you give in. Put the food down. Yes, it is really hard. Yes, you will fail sometimes. Yes, you are going to be miserable and unhappy while you get used to the new diet. But let me tell you, that the feeling that you have of not only achieving a goal, BUT the confidence of being able to leave the house without feeling like a whale. Without crying yourself into a panic attack because you are too scared of leaving the house because of your fat. These are the things that make it worth it. Just imagine what it feels like to go out and know that you are not the fattest person in the room. If you don't think that it is worth it, go back to your cake. But for FUCK SAKES. Stop. Bitching. You think being skinny is easy? It isn't. You think that denying your body the normal human satisfaction of eating is simpler for some people? Those people aren't us. We work very hard for the weight that we lose. In fact, we mostly dedicate our lives - every waking thought - to food. Get over it. Or get on with it. Because I am over you. Savvy?

Anyway, enough about that. It needed to be said. Today, I'm feeling really good. Cutting out the carbs in my diet has really had a remarkable change on me... which is so weird because I didn't think it would. I have a lot more energy and I don't feel like I need to sleep all day. In addition my belly is looking so flat. I'm going to measure it now to see what is happening, but I'm convinced that it's flatter even though I'm still fat. I only lost 0.2kg AGAIN this morning, so I'm a little bleak about it. But. It is time for my period in the next day or two, so I'm hoping that after my period I'll just drop 3kg overnight... Wishful thinking? I've had about 540 cals today so far and I have some chicken to go for dinner and possibly an orange. So far today I've had two scrambled eggs, 85g of tuna, a banana and a plum. Oh and my regular coffee and honey. It is actually about... 450, but I always total the milk and honey in my coffee for the day when I'm planning, so that total is inclusive of coffee that I'm yet to drink or may not have at all. As much as I really love being on this detox, I am still mentally planning the binge that I get when it's done. I'm going to take one day and eat like a crazy person, before starting another month. Or maybe two weeks at a time. I want cheetos, pizza with extra cheese, mac and cheese, chocolate and chocolate granola. Oh and a BIG bag of crisps. You know, even as I say that right now. I don't find the thought of those foods particularly appealing. Hmmm... maybe it is true what they say that if stop eating certain foods, your body stops craving them... hmmm... This detox has given me a lot to think about. 

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

17 comments:

Anonymous said...

AMEN! don't be surprised if this post gets tons of views because i just might be re-reading it everyday. lolzies.

J (: said...

I will so be reading this post for days to come!! :D
Maybe you posted it in another post, but if you wouldn't mind, could you post your detox?
It sounds kinca nice, and it might be something I want to try when I get home from vacation. Xxx

PrettyLies said...

Amen to that. I'm sorry if my blog has contributed to the constant whining or complaining, but I've been in a weird place lately, all insecure and such, for no reason. I'm happy to hear your detox is going well. My abs are yelling at me that boot camp is working but who knows, I won't be convinced until I see evidence. Take care hon <3

Loopy Lucie said...

I think I have been one of those people :/ Eeeeek! Thanks for the post, really made me think about stuff xx

Darling Datura said...

THIS is my kind of motivation! Thanks, think I'll be joining all the people re-reading this everyday! :) xx

Miranda said...

Thanks for the wake up call. It sucks but it's true. For some being thin IS easy but not for a lot of us and to make it worse we are not only addicted to food but also to being thin!! Put down the tortilla chips fat girl! I literally sent myself a reminder via my phone saying that for tonight.

yours said...

Amen, my dear.
Goals are great.
But RESULTS are REAL.

I'm trying to simply post my daily intake and daily sources of thinspo. :D

Anonymous said...

Hey, I am definitely one of those people. Thank you, that was a motivational start to my day. Good luck with the rest of your detox :)
Alice xx

Charlie said...

I'm definitely one of those people.
And right now was definitely a great time to read that.


Thank you.

Anonymous said...

Love the wake up call. I find myself saying that mentally every time a fat friend complains about not losing weight but its good to hear it from someone else from time to time! Great to hear the detox is going well. Keep us posted on the stomach's changes.

Tree said...

Thank you, thank you...just what I needed to hear. I will also be coming back to read this often :)

Jaed said...

VERY inspiring. I desperately need to get a scale but I am never in town alone and I can't get one when I am with other people.... it would be weird. Thank you for posting so much! Most thinspo blogs I know only post every month or so :/ Keep up the great work and stay strong!!

~Nessa~ said...

a-fricken-men. If it were easy, we wouldn't be here.

Katie Elizabeth said...

I'm so glad someone said it =) We work really hard to get where we are. I'm glad to hear everything is going well with your detox. And eating like a crazy person is ok once in awhile. Hope all is well my dear.
XOXO

Kay said...

I love this post. Seriously, this should be a full time job with how much time, energy, concentration, and plain ol' work I put into it! There's no magic secret to skinny. If only, huh? :)

Lolita said...

I'm one of those. Unlike everyone else though, posts like this get my back up- probably because I know you're right. :) xx

Anonymous said...

I will read this everyday! Such great motivation thank you thank you thank you :) <33333 xxx