Thursday, June 7, 2012

For Reals Yo

Y'all are seriously the absolute best at cheering me up. From the bottom of my heart. I can't even express how much it means to me that I can get support no matter what. Just to clarify though, I don't have family that I can rely on. They freak out if they hear anything is going wrong with me, which is why I moved half way across the world... to get away from them. To have people constantly interfering in your life, but not in a supportive way - in a way that stresses you out and never respecting your decisions and boundaries... it's not great. And as for him. I know. I know, I know, I know a hundred times, I know. I can't make any excuses for how pathetic I am when it comes to him. I know. I really do, and I'm sorry you have to read my dribble about him, I know. I'm still fat and miserable, although I moved into my own flat now. So I can weigh and be obsessive at my own pace and I love that. I bought a scale. And I am at 59kgs, so no gain. Which is good. And a slight loss. But now ladies. UGW. Let's do this. I'm really tired.

So today, I will start afresh. Two cups of coffee as per my usual, unlimited peppermint tea, a petits filous for breakfast with a banana. Salad for lunch and corn for dinner. Hopefully ending up at around 400. We can do this. I found the most beautiful pic for thinspo. Excellent

Love & Peace
Xo Xo


Bella said...

Glad to see you're feeling better <3 Good news on the scale, too!


Lolita said...

So happy that you're feeling better today!

The support that you get through blogs is really heart warming sometimes.
I used to have a blog a few years ago and loved the sense of community, which is why I'm back again now. I missed it a lot.

I also moved halfway across the world to escape people (from the UK to Canada) but I'm back again now and its proving quite difficult to get used to.

Keep strong. You can do it xx

Dylan Leigh said...

Staying away is the best idea, really. Mine PUT me away, like I'm in a regulated memory box. They've never even visited me. Not in years.

That IS a beautiful picture.


Judith Marie said...

hey hey pretty lady,
it's what we're here for. I knew you wouldn't gain, your diet was so good so there is no way you'd gain on it.
And I'm loving that thinspo.
Keep up your great work and you'll be thin soon!

WeWillChange said...

Glad things are going better(: I love reading your blog!
I hope some of those other things will work out soon. Meanwhile, try to just keep going, skinny girl(:

Katie Elizabeth said...

Yay for finally moving into your own flat. I'm glad that we can all cheer you up when needed. And I'm sorry things are still not going well with the boy. Keep your head up and stay beautiful.

WinterA said...

Sounds like you are having a great day today. I know I support you. You are such a nice person.

Wow sorry to hear about your family. Seems like moving half way across the world is helping.

Don't worry about the boy. I have liked people who were no good for me. I can't explain it. Some guys have something that just keeps you coming back or wanting to try with them. You will know when to stop caring him trust me.

Yes that thinspo pix is lovely. Great job at maintaining your weight without a scale! I can't wait to see what you do next. Stay focused lovely.

Jade Schecter said...

I got my own place about 6 months ago too. This is the first time in my life I have actually been on my own. No parents, no significant other. It's kind of nice to just "be" with all the obsessive crap. No hiding. Anyways, sounds like things are going better for you and I'm glad to hear that :) Take care <3 Jade

Tatyana said...

Yay! for feeling better.
Yay, Yay!! for the new flat.
Yay, Yay, Yay!!! for working out things about him and getting over it.


Anonymous said...

This is not heathly for you or anyone reading.. To have flesh on your bones does not make you fat!! I've often wanted to be thinner but never skin and bones, hope you feel comfortable in your own skin soon and are living a healthier life because of it x