This morning I weighed in at... 55.5kg. HOLY FUCK! That's 1lb from my UGW. Jesus fuck, what the hell am I going to do when I get to that weight... well firstly, I need to reflect. I mean, this is as thin as I am ever going to be. I promised that i wouldn't get thinner than that. So. I need to not lose anymore weight after 55. I mean I guess a sway of 2kgs is okay. But I need to learn to eat to maintain. I am also going to try on ALL of my clothes and oh lawdy me, they better fit perfectly and not be tight at all. I can't believe it. This is such a low weight for me. Yesterday I didn't feel like eating at all so i had two oranges and about five cups of tea. Today i have to do work, so I am making myself some breakfast. I think today I shall aim for about 800 calories so that my brain functions properly and my body of course, because my body is very weak at the moment. Standing up in the shower is really difficult. Walking up stairs is difficult too. I feel like I'm going to faint, and i don't like this. So today, I am going to try and eat. I am still doing the clean eating thing. And i need to try get more iron in my diet. But my strictly vegetarian diet - brocolli. Yum. Not.
To answer a question from my previous blog... I don't find that restricting affects my mind that much, like generally I function on normally. I also usually don't heavily restrict for long periods of time. I try to go for about 600 - 800 cals a day and generally I can function quite well on that. I do consider this a lot because the work that I do is very academic. And I need to be sharp in order to do it properly. I also drink a lot of caffeine despite myself, but yes. At the moment, i am pretty iron deficient and have been restricting quite heavily, so I know that I need to eat to get myself back a little bit. I guess you learn what you body can deal with as these things go along. :)
Love & UGW